stop harming myself

im a fucking screw up. Im so fucked in the head! WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING TO MYSELF?
I hate myself so much!! Cant anybody see!!!

GOD HELP ME!!

FUCK!!!!!!!!

Im gunna go back to the dr…change my medication. this double dose is not helping. not helping at all. I dont wanna get out of bed in thw mornings…but i cant sleep at nite. and when i do sleep i have nightmares. the dr really really needs to help me fix this!
but i havent had a drink, or a smoke or cut in i think nearly a month.

learning to breath….harder than i thought it would be….

Im going to have to avoid certain situations, i think ive gotta have a good look at who i hang around with where i go…things i do…change the patterns of my behaviour…

One week on and I havent touched any booze! hoorah! I havent smoked for a week either!!!

its gunna be hard when I have to go out with my friends who know nothing of this other side of me…

i added this coz it covers more than just cutting…binge drinking all that sorta stuff… i gotta make a few changes since i seem to have slipped back into old habbits…

Haven’t self harmed over two years now and it makes me feel much better. Last time i did it made me feel worst and thought it’s such a waste harming myself when it’s not my fault. I should try to make myself happy instead so do something that makes you happy, something fun like a computer game or going out with friends. It’s worth it, no more pain or scars. And you don’t want to accidentally cut yourself too deep, you might end in hospital.

I was never addicted, just every once in a while. But I got help and overcame it. If you need help, check out Corinna Fugate on youtube. She has some really good advice and knows what its like. Reading her bio brought tears to my eyes, and yet she continues on. She is really inspirational. Wish you all the best.