stay open-hearted no matter what

is that my house got broken into, and both my computers and a whole lot of other stuff was stolen.

the reason that this entry fits into this section (aside from the fact that it had to fit somewhere) is that i didnt choose to feel violated, freaked out, or angry… peeved yes, because i dont believe in insurance and didnt have the money to replace a single thing… i emptied my bank account fixing the broken window.

but the story has a happy ending- the police recovered everything and caught the robber. ta da!

and the moral of the story is to listen to your intuition- as i was leaving the house, i had this funny feeling and even went back to check the door was locked. and i thought… if my laptop gets nicked, i’ll lose all the work i’ve just done cos its not backed up. i’m not the kind of person who expects bad things to happen… not a bit. but after checking the door i went ahead anyway, went swimming and two hours later came home to an even funnier feeling.

and if there’s other things i need to learn from this, maybe its to spread my wealth around a little bit more so that it doesnt have to get spread around for me.

i have done this, and it makes me feel good to know that if i died tomorrow everyone who is important to me would know how much i loved them.

and when wanda died recently, i was happy that she knew, on every single day of her life, that we loved her.

somedays my love is bigger than me, and i can tell people i dont know all that well that i love them and mean it.