I need to remember. I am a person that never quits. I don’t let ANYTHING stop me.

I WILL DO THIS!!!!!!! 3 years ago

I really hit the nail on the head this past 2 weeks. These past two weeks have been stellar for me. I’ve made a TON of progress with myself. I’m really MOVING FORWARD AND (TRYING) TO LET NOTHING STOP ME.

The biggest indicator of this is that I applied for a job that I’ve always wanted in my company. I think I nailed the interview AND I sent a thoughtful thank you card to the person who interviewed me. I am perfect for the job, I know this. I think she does, too. Even if she doesn’t realize it, I know now that there is something else out there waiting for me that is better. I will not stop until I find it. I am an amazing person who inspires people and I am an amazing writer, speaker, and leader. That stuff isn’t the stuff that everybody is made of. I’m made of it. I am valuable. I will move forward and let nothing stop me. I’m on a freaking roll!!

NOTE: Another thing I’ve vowed to do in relation to this goal. I have vowed to STOP HESITATING. Hesitating does nothing for me and my goals. If I see something I want, I need to lunge at it. I did that with the job opening, and I plan to do that with everything that I want in the future. Life is too short to be sit back being patient waiting for good stuff to come my way. I’ve never been happy waiting for the good stuff. I’ve always been happy when I went out and SOUGHT the good stuff and brought it to me: be it a marathon finish line, a 1/2 Ironman finish line, my wonderful perfect partner…etc. LIFE IS NOT ABOUT WAITING. I’m going to stop waiting, stop hesitating and MOVE FORWARD AND LET NOTHING STOP ME.

I vow this to myself. I will define what I want and GO GET IT!!! 3 years ago

Because moving forward and letting nothing stop me this past weekend was really exactly what happened. I refused to stop until I could see the finish line of my 50 miler. It was long, arduous, and long. I got lost many times. But I continued forward and let nothing stop me, not even fatigue or the feeling of not knowing where I was. It was a big step for me athletically and mentally. Now to apply that perseverance to all other aspects of my life. 3 years ago

With all the positive progress I am making, I feel like the girl in this photo… 3 years ago

yesterday I was at my favorite smoothie shop with my darling love. my darling love was buying me a smoothie because we buy each other smoothies when we accomplish large goals. i accomplished something that was very hard for me last night, i called and set up an appointment with a therapist for the first time in my life. i admitted that i needed help. it was a big step. i hope that this step will ultimately help me move forward in life in a big way and hence that is why we were at the fav smoothie place. to celebrate that moving forward and that accomplishment.

and so, there was a strange man standing there in the shop, sort of loitering and he asked where i was from. i said i’m not from Austin originally i’m from Boulder. He said “you’re from Boulder and you moved HERE!? you need to have your head examined” and I said “well that’s ironic because that’s why i’m here at this smoothie shop right now. i called the therapist to have my head examined” and he didn’t catch all of that, but i still found it hilarious.

go me. i found a funny out of a hard situation.

yay kismet 4 years ago

Maybe I just hate my job. Maybe it’s that. But sometimes I get this strong inkling to move. To move out of Austin. I picked up and left Boulder over 3 years ago, and that felt great. Maybe moving again would feel even greater. I never wanted to stay in Austin this long. I never planned to stay here as long as I have. I planned to go to Seattle, San Diego, Boston, Portland…so many other places. And I haven’t budged. It kind of bugs me. There are things that tie you to places but I need to remember it’s not the things that matter, its the people, the love, and the dreams that matter. If my dream is to move again then I think I should. I just don’t know where yet. 4 years ago