have more freedom

i dont have as much freedom as i used to because i had a drug/alcohol problem

Yes we all know it’s a pain in the ass but the best part about it is the freedom we attain from it. I think the best part about me growing up is that aspect. I wish I could say that it was the memories but honestly, how would’ve I made those memories if I didn’t have the freedom to make them? I wish that everyone had freedom from the ripe ages of like….let’s just say 8 cuz it’s my favorite number….but yeah I mean I know we have unalianable rights but I mean the choice to be able to go out with friends whenever without having to have an adult present.

I wish I could say that I would do that for my kids but I know that I can’t and no it’s not because I’m realizing that I’d be like my mom and say I can’t trust a kid. The truth is, I don’t feel safe in this country anymore and I have no regrets saying that. That being said, I think it’s awful that I can. Not the speech part of that freedom but the fact that we live in the United States and i don’t feel like my children are going to grow up without constant fear that they’re going to be blown to smitherines while attending a class, be it elementary or a university. I’m scared of being scared and tired of it.

I don’t understand how things could’ve declined so badly in 4 years but I’m sure that I can only blame George W. Bush and all of his stupid ass bullshit. So thanx a lot there Georgie! I knew there was a reason that even as a fourth grader, I wanted Gore to win. I always was a little genius. But it would be great if the next president could change things around. It would be the best thing for this country right now but I also have lost most of my faith in our government and our conventional systems so if the next prezy can change it all around that perhaps my hastiness can change.

Still I enjoy the freedom I have and don’t take it for granted. It’s nice. I just wish I could stop looking over my back. :D

the library and park are less than 10 minutes (walking) away. I don’t live in a bad neighborhood. But my parents (mother mostly) won’t let me go anywhere. It effects my relationship with them because I feel like they don’t think I can take care of myself at all. But they are impossible to talk to. And they aren’t taking any of my huge hints that I throw out.

To go places without taking someone with me

i love my parents and understand that they want to protect me… but i wish i could have just a littl more freedom then i have now!