be confident and courageous, consistently.

I realize that I’ve been doing this for the past few weeks, and perhaps the past few years… but I don’t always give myself credit for it, or I beat myself up. I believe the new job I acquired this past month has helped this a TON, as I feel totally right for the work and am ecstatic to do what I do. (...but don’t tell my boss!)

part I have problems with… its the consistently part. Something I will have to keep working on. But for now this thing is done.

there is a game you can play where you collect 100 airplanes in flight; when you reach 100 you make a wish. when i completed this process in late august, i wished for courage, compassion, and confidence. i think it is working.

Well not really , its just that I realize how vague this goal is. Into the dustbin with you .

I thought that to be confident and courageous, consistently would be relatively easy. Boy was I soooo wrong. I am finding that it be a battle within myself more so. A fight I am willing to wage and win.

So, I lost it there for a little while and I was completely a mess. I didn’t even realize it really until it was pointed out to me that my confidence was gone. THANK GOODNESS I have it back. I went to this leadership conference and really thought about what was being said and took it to heart and I just feel a whole lot better. The fire is back and I know I am confident and courageous!!

it just isn’t happening. no matter how much i dream it to happen…i’m not that strong. i can be more confident in some situations than i used to be but i’m deluding myself that i will ever be anything other than a scared loser freak.

I don’t know what it has been lately but I have found this place inside myself that is strong and good and wonderful. I haven’t needed anyone else to make me feel this way. I am lucky because I have amazing people in my life. But, I lost the one person I thought meant the most and I am fine. I am doing what I want, making the world better and I feel good.

I’m going to get rid of it as I think it’s a bit vague, and because several other goals cover it already. But I’m still going to keep on trying..

A challenge I apply every day, so I can check this one off for now.