go to Quaker Meeting

I have wanted to attend a meeting for a long time and so I finaly got in touch with the clerk of the nearest meeting by sending him a letter. He gave me some info and told me were they met but somthing crazy happened….I accidentaly crashed a strangers funeral. Needless to say I’ve been a bit hesitant to try again though I still want to go.

I know my goal was to go once, but really I wanted to go once so I would get back in touch with the spiritual part of my life, with a loving community of seekers, and perhaps find support for other parts of my life. Today I went even though last night I’d not been sure I wanted to. I’m hurting so much right now my instinct is to withdraw from people. But I knew it would be better for me not to do that and that I’d probably be glad I went. Well, I went and I’m glad. I enjoyed the silent worship, the spiritual journey program, met more nice people, got inspiration and motivation, and even found a support group, another goal on my 43 things! I may well find a solution for my future housing there, too.

Oh, seeming like a special reward for getting out in the world today…I saw a coyote and young deer in the fresh snow on the way to Meeting and stopped to take pictures for my nephew, who I’d promised snow pictures last night.

Not that this was hard, but I’ve been here 20 months and never been to Meeting. A big part of that was the relationship, him not believing in anything spiritual and disliking churches of any kind, plus us keeping Sunday “sacred” to together time. Still, it felt better to be at Meeting this morning than out snowboarding. I can still do that on a weekday off and beat the lines ; ) I signed up for the newsletter mailing committee which should help me keep going and stay involved. So this is done!

I’m taking it off the list. Maybe one day.

I guess that means that this goal is going to take even longer than I thought to complete. It’s frustrating because I really want to go, but they just have services on Sundays.

I figured they’re there every Sunday anyways…. I’m going to go one of these days.

The only free Sunday morning I have this month is October 28th, so that’s when I’ll be going. I can’t wait to stop staring at that goal!

I’m not sure when this goal gets “completed”—maybe once it becomes enough of a habit that I know I’ll give it consideration each weekend?

Finlay and I went to meeting yesterday in Swarthmore—my first-ever time there, despite living in the area for many years. Two weeks previous was my first-ever meeting, in Manhattan. Both were very fulfilling experiences. Maybe after a few more meetings I’ll be ready to call this completed, but I can already say it’s Worth Doing.

I made it to Swat meeting for the first time in about two years! it was great! woohoo!

until sunday. why isn’t it sunday yet?