Learn to Love myself rather then Hate myself

I need to learn to love myself.

I’ve hated myself for too long. It’s time to stop.

I used to hate myself, now I dont….but I’m not sure if I like myself.

I am feeling miserable because I thought someone found me special but turns out that he treats everyone else in the same manner too _. Why do I always seek approval from others? The worst thing is I do not like him because I dont even know him but i do have a mini-crush on him. Crap, why is his every action affecting me? Why do I bother so much that he held another girl and danced with her? That he uses the word “cute” on other girls so liberally? And that he said “i love you” and calls me “my dear” in a jokingly manner? it irritates me because I know he didnt mean all that he said and yet his actions and speech still affect me. Oh Bummer. What a flirt..

i feel like such a loser. i am the final year of my degree and cant finish it. My depression is taking hold. i dont leave the house, drink rum till and do drugs to numb my pain, sleep with anyone for a quick fix feeling. I cant concentrate, when infront of my work i dont have the confidence to write anything. i look for distractions. When i cross the road i hope to get struck by a car. i have wandered the train tracks willing myself to step infront of a train and made further attempts on my life, but fortunatley prove to cowardly to go through with it.This depression has been going on for nearly ten years. My pills improve it slightly but not enough, i dont want to die just want to live with a quality of life worth living for.

I hate myself. I can’t explain why or when it’s started. I just do. Supposedly I’m a pretty popular person, at least in the sense that I have a lot of friends and that I go out often on trips or to bars, etc. However, I don’t feel it. The truth is I’m just the comic relief in everyone else’s life. I can never just go out and sit quietly to myself anymore without someone getting on my case about it. It’s like I always have to put on a show for everyone. The problem is, if I don’t put on the show, I’m not entirely sure my friends will want to chill with me anymore. Also, I greatly hate myself because I’m 27 and I’m alone. Everyone tells me that 27 is young and I’ve got all this time ahead of me but that doesn’t make the time now suck any less. I don’t know, I guess I’m just a gigantic fucking pussy who’s tired of losing the girls to assholes.

I hate myself with all my heart, i mean I’ve never been happy with myself but now its like I make everyone around me dissapointed and i can’t stand it, i’m useless,when i was younger i was the best in my class but i was also a big fat looser…now i’ve change, i have friends now but whenever i feel better someone brings me down one way or another…they say I don’t care for my studies or that they liked me best when i was shy,or as my mom would say:”you’re so annoying but you don’t even see it” etc…i don’t know…I just want to scream at the top of my lungs: SHUT THE FUCK UP!!....i’ve tried to hate other people beside me but i can’t do it…i just come back to hating myself even more..I can’t live like this anymore…I have to do something before i go crazy

I don’t know why I hate myself but I do. I never feel like I’m achieving what I should, I always feel like I let myself and others down. Nobody ever says I let them down, in fact I seem to be one of the people others complain about the least out of everyone. I guess it must just be all in my own mind. Maybe I’m setting myself standards I can’t reach and when I get close to reaching the standards I want I raise them higher again so they’re always just out of reach. It’s almost as if I want to hate myself.
I suppose it started when my dad died and I moved away from Belgium back to England so I was wisked away to a new country where I didn’t know anyone just when I needed my closest friends the most. I’ve always blamed myself for my dad dying really even though deep down i know it can’t be my fault.
Anyways sorry I’m going on here. Just started typing then it all started flowing out.

I am so tired of all of this pain. It’s so easy to smile and make people happy, yet it feels extremely difficult trying to make myself happy. I don’t ever complain to anyone, because I know there are people in this world, who have and still suffer worse than me. Even though I have gone through a lot of pain, I make sure no one knows it. I walk around, not trusting people, because of my past and hating myself for that. What have they done to me? Absolutely nothing..yet. It’s my own fault! My fault I was molested, my fault my loved ones die and my fault that I am the only child who’s gone to university and I can’t even get the best grades to make everyone proud. I am so sick of pain, yet not too sick where I can’t feel it. I want to make everyone happy , but I can’t, because I am so freakin useless.
I can’t stand it….I’m fat, ugly, stupid and I can’t take this anymore!

i only hate myself because every one hates me but i didnt do eny thing to them to hate me so i dont have and dont want eny freinds in school just a BUCKET full of freinds in greece in greece i am a whole diffrent person…i want to die but i’m not emo,my mom REALY dosent like it when i say that and some times i think every one hates me even my family,but then the start talking to me like tharipists like “stop thinking all these sick thoghts”........i just want to be happy agein…