accept the fact that I am and will probably always be epileptic and deal with it!

We figured out that it’s called a focal seizure and occurs when I’m hypoglycemic. Meaning that if I have something to eat or drink beforehand that will regulate my glycemic levels(I kinda made up the words) then I won’t have a twitch. I ate before class and brought juice instead of water and I was fine. I’m so happy that it’s sorted. I’ve also informed the owner of the studios about my epilepsy and she’s cool with it. Had cigarettes yesterday but didn’t drink.

I’ve started dancing again and something that used to happen a long time ago has come back. I’m blacking out for a few seconds when dancing. It’s frustrating cos I lose timing and get behind in steps. I was so scared the first time it happened but I’ll have to handle it. I haven’t been drinking or smoking for a day. Whoo Hoo! How sad that I’m excited over that but it’s something I guess. I just go on if it happens and when I’m done with the piece I just chill and breathe, maybe have a sip of water. I just have to remain calm. I love dancing and it’s saving me from all the bad stuff-even when I suck- and my epilepsy will be a part of my life so I have to try to make them meet and compromise. I won’t buy a box of smokes or alcohol when I dancing. I’ll even go to gym. I need to make this work. I will make it work.