Embrace changing circumstances in life without extreme levels of stress.

in my humble opinion. There have been very many “changing circumstances” in my life lately. I’m not comfortable going into detail on-line, so please just trust what I’m writing. I have not lost all sanity through this time, and have maintained a fairly positive attitude throughout it. One of my best friends in the world always has said, “What doesn’t kill you in life only makes you stronger.” Well, maybe I’m getting stronger. I hope so.

I’m not doing well with this goal…I haven’t been for a few weeks, but I’ve been managing to keep my head above water. Tonight I wrecked my car. I’m fine physically, the car’s not. I may have to get another one. This is one time I really wish that I could make the world freeze in time, but I know I can’t do that. Aside from the fact it’s not possible, I have too many responsibilities to attend to. With all the stress I’ve been dealing with, and this to add to it, this goal will truly be tested! I feel guilty even making this entry when there are other people going through lots worse things, too. So, thank you for being patient and bearing with me on this.

but, it does deal with stress-related stuff. I am really trying to stay positive despite many things that have happened lately. I would share some more, but I just don’t want to focus on it right now. (You already know about my “adopted sister”...that’s just one thing out of 4 or 5 things that’s been bothering me lately.) I’m very frustrated with some circumstances lately, and I’m only barely staying above water to keep positive. Most who know me, wouldn’t necessarily know that I’m under this much stress, because I really have handled it well for the most part. But, just because I’ve outwardly put on the face of “everything’s fairly okay in life” doesn’t make it the truth.

I shouldn’t complain this much, but I have very few people in “real life” that I would tell this to. I guess I’m just keeping the saying in mind, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” And, I have faith that this is a momentary trial right now and that “everything happens for a reason.”

I’m very tired mentally…I’ve had a hard day. But, things will get better. I’m just a little weaker emotionally than usual. Sorry for being so negative…hopefully I’ll be back to normal by Friday!

but, I’ve got a lot on my mind lately. I continue to struggle with staying healthy long-term, and it is starting to wear on me. (I know that part of this is my fault for not doing the best job of taking care of myself.) I am working on my health-related goals, though, and even went to bed early tonight. But, this isn’t the only thing on my mind.

Tonight, I was awakened to a call from my “adopted mother” about 20 minutes after I’d gone to bed. She told me that my youngest “adopted sister” had been in an accident. She’s stable at this point, but still having doctors evaluate her situaion and at this point and is in ICU step-down. She’s got a husband and two young children and is the main income-source for the family. Also, the younger child’s birthday happened to be on today, too. He had to spend it celebrating with his aunt and a cousin or two of his and his brother. So just keep them all in your prayers.

I hope nothing else “exciting” happens this week. (See escape being around criminal activity for my other “exciting” incident.)

I love weather, but I fear it, too. Rita’s coming my way now…and my weather radio’s batteries just died…the two sets I had to replace them didn’t work either. So I’m praying that power doesn’t go out so I can keep abreast on the web! We’re under tornado watch, flood watch and wind advisory today. Look at the radar! Cool!...but a bit scary…this is the most organized system to be in our area in a while (that I’ve seen in months).

I did decently with dealing with stress…I just didn’t sleep like I should have…Yesterday, I did some exercise and went to bed early (for a weekend) and got the most relaxing sleep I’ve had in a while until my cell phone woke me up :(...I feel good about the past couple of days for several reasons, but for personal reasons I won’t go into them. Now if I can just get through this work week with as little stress as possible, that will be awesome.

I’m doing well now…but who knows later…

my grandmother passed away this afternoon :( ...so at least that’s one less worry for her…I know that she’s in heaven and not suffering mentally, spiritually or physically anymore. :)

Please keep my family in your prayers. especially my mother and aunt.

My grandmother is slowly (extremely so) progressing and is no longer in isolation from the infection she developed while in the hospital. She is still in the hospital, though.

My grandfather is in the rehabilitation part of the hospital and fell this past week, but he is getting a little stonger and seems to be recovering a little quicker than my grandmother.

So, I will let you know if anything develops.

I’ve suddenly realized today after almost 8 hours of sleep and one very intense (I’m not going into it, because it’s really, really bad) nightmare that I’ve got to do this. (I haven’t had a nightmare in literally over a year, I believe.) So, I’ve decided to seriously pursue another job.

my Alabama friend made it home yesterday, so that’s good! :)

I also want to continue to thank all those who have shown their support through this…you warm my heart! :D