find my other half

The toughest challenge in building a relationship for is that it requires awareness, attention, consideration, and time. This seems simple but with a stressful job, a stressful life, there is little room for a relationship to grow.

The truth is my other half is out there, but our relationship cannot grow because our hearts are filled with anxieties, worries, fears, doubts, and our time is taken up by our jobs and demands.

I’m done of looking life with just one pair of eyes and say to myself what a gorgeus day!

Do I really have an other half out there? Sometimes I wonder. It’s odd though. Whenever I quiet down all my own thoughts and listen to the source of wisdom, the answer is clearly “Yes. I do have an other half out there.”

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I decided to take some actions for this goal. If I do nothing and wait, my other half will never show up knocking on my door. Goals don’t complete themselves if I do nothing about them. Everything worthwhile is completed through persistent effort.

So, I must take a step.

When I was young I used to be attracted to guys who like me, who are nice to me. Now I realized that just liking me and being nice to me isn’t enough. If he does not have compassion, kindness, honesty, patience towards others, sooner or later he will lose it for me too.

The right guy for me is someone who is simply a good person to all humanity, who has good characters, integrity, strength, wisdom, honor.

It’s been about seven years after the divorce. I’ve traveled a long way. For the first few years, I really wanted to never even think about marriage and dating ever in life. I wanted to live single for the rest of my life. Then, as the wounds heals little by little, I began to notice the little clues the universe is sending me. A guy that smiles and says hello, a young man tries to start a conversation, a gentleman made my heart wishing I had a husband or a son like him, finally a few dates (pretty bad ones but nevertheless progress).

I wonder where life is headed the next.

I have been just living life, without actively looking for an other half. Now I wonder if it is time to take this seriously. After all, anything worthwhile is accomplished through persistent hard work. Maybe I need to work at this. But how?

I mean, I know how to persistently put in time and effort to learn to sing, to dance, to do my job as a database administrator, to manage finances, but there is no clear way to find one’s other half. My parents met when they were very young in college, so did my sister, my grandparents, but their scripts of life do not apply to mine. I have to find what works for me…

I wonder, does one really need to make an intentional effort to find the other half, or is it that i’m supposed to meet my other half as i live life to the best i can.

That in the beginning , the Creator made three sexes. Each sex was comprised of a male/female, female/female, male/male union. Thus each person was perfectly whole and blissfully complete. However, time came when the Architect became displeased with his creations, for in their total happiness they found no time or reason to love or worship him. He took his knife in anger then, and cut each person down the middle. So, thereafter and for all eternity, we were condemned to wander the earth in search of our other half.

That’s tragic comedy for you.