and life issss gooodddddd i still smoke quite a bit, almost daily, but im not really a fiend anymore 7 months ago

and life issss gooodddddd i still smoke quite a bit, almost daily, but im not really a fiend anymore 7 months ago

im very excited to be able to finally smoke again tomorrow. I have been completely smoke free for 10 days now!!!!!!! and almost-free for about a month. I realized that I have to respect my body and understand MODERATION. so I’m aiming for just the weekends now, because I think it was stressing me out trying to handle my big smoking habit. especially because I want A’s this semester and school is coming up. i’m buying a roor to reward my newfound self control : ) im storing it with friends though because I dont know how to handle the temptation of nearness/convenience

to those trying to take a break: it gets easier after about 3 days, then MUCH easier after a week. you wont think about it even 9 months ago

lately i’ve stopped smoking pot for real. I got sick and realized that my immune system HATES ME for smoking. i think im going to keep this up for at least a month. i dont even want to smoke pot right now

which is convenient, because its about time!!!!! (says my body) 9 months ago

went 4 or 5 days!!!!! maybe more
not by choice really, but hey!!! 10 months ago

is it bad that i think once a day is “cutting back”???? 10 months ago

reasons i like smoking weed:
makes everything more enjoyable
SEX,
eating,
music,
movies,
art homework,
everything else
humanities classes LOLOLOL
i really enjoy the act of smoking
i like getting high with others
i like bongs and i like tobacco hits out of bongs — these are a rare treat for me now because tobacco is the devil

reasons i want to take a break:
its good to “break” my addictions one in a while
its really indulgent to smoke so much
its VERY EXPENSIVE
it puts me in a haze after my tolerance gets too high
im suspicious its causing brain farts
it makes bad/scary/sad things more UN-enjoyable
it takes up time that i could be using on other things
i realllllllyyyy want to start over with a low tolerance
MY HACKING COUGH
good timing as im living w my parents and my mom just found weed on me …TWICE!!
edibles give me stomachaches
I like getting excited about being able to smoke again. its like using it as an incentive/reward which i’ve never been very good at and should really start doing!!!!!!!!!!
the weed in Buffalo isnt worth it right now its better and cheaper in cali
doing math or physics high sucks

BREAK GOAL: at least TEN DAYSSTART DATE: TODAY jan 11th
END DATE: jan 21 CALIIIIIII

this has really been a month long goal for my semester break. i did about a week at first no smoking!!! then 1g (over 3 days) then 1g (over two days) then 5g (over 7 days or so) then maybe .5 since then doing little bowlies :)
= 8 grams total if i’m rounding up (i’m giving myslef a .5 allowance the rest of break because theres a couple stoners i wanna see but ill keep it down to bowls :) —> saw louie on jan 11th (day 1),

the money ive spent: 10+15+30=55 yikes!!!

compared to how i normally smoke thats a pretty light month
ESPECIALY BECAUSE I’VE TAKEN IN LITERALLY ZERO TOBACCO FOR THE PAST MONTH

ok
DAY 1: today JAN 11th
i smoked a little bowl in the morning because i had it (oopsies) the nice thing about pot is that you dont have to smoke a large quantity so its a lot easier on my lungs than tobacco thats for sure. then i took a resin hit because i’m fiending. then half a blunt because I hung out with my friend Louie

DAY 2 jan 12th: no smoking!!

DAY 3 jan 13th: no smoking! i have a way lower appetite, im having trouble sleeping but ive gotten a lot of annoying stuff done today like listing on ebay … cleaning a bit … making a to do list… trimming my hair… put in a work order you know

day 4 jan 14th: no smoking

day 5 jan 15th: no smoking, bad dreams STILL had trouble sleeping last night

day 6 jan 16th: no smoking, bad dreams and STILL had trouble sleeping and low appetite. aside from the physical effects im not so much feinding as getting excited to be able to hit that bong again …also, im coughing up some interesting stuff. im happy im clearing out my lungs a bit and my throat feels so healthy i didnt really notice how sore it was getting 16 months ago