sort out my life

help me!im assending into nothing and i cant find anymotivation!

im so ambitious well there’s no wrong in being ambitous but i got many big ideas in my little head but i don’t want how and when and where to get them out and make them come real besides i have very small budget i know it requires lots of patience and sacrifice i just need to inspiration and support
actually i got over my failing for two years at first year uni and succeeded this year it was a big step done because i have a lost hearing 30% which makes my life harder im struggling more and more now i achieved my first aim which is success at first year that makes me want to give my best more for other 2 years ( i have 2 years left of my study )
other thing to mention , is im trying to improve myself and finding out what iam and what i do like because i learned that im not the one who people wants me to be and my life is given to make it up on all my own
my big dream is to be a writer im very interested in english literature specially ancien lit but i have other interest meanwhile i love dance as well and painting too besides i love languages eveyrday i learn new words actually i speak four language along with my first language but it’s still that perfect it’s just i don’t know how to start doing things up and arrange my time on my study and ambitions and hobbies

Can anyone help me with this goal? At the moment I am failing college, I am clinically depressed, I have virtually ignored most of my friends to the point that they no longer care about me. I am certain that I will lose my job this weekend because I didn’t turn up for work and never called to tell them. I know all my problems are my own fault but I can’t figure out how to sort them!! Or maybe I am just a lazy, useless, selfish waste of space? I think that is probably true. I would love to be pretty and care about others and make an effort to be the best I can be but I really don’t have the energy or the greatest desire…

Well, the first year of uni is over, not sure whether I’ve passed yet and I’m sorta doubting I have.. But anyway. I’m not really sure what to do…
There are a few options. If I don’t pass then I’m going to change to maths with computing, if I do pass then I’m not sure whether to change or to stick with computer science… But I’m really not enjoying this course too much, and starting a new course will give me a chance to start all over again… And if I wanted to I could also go to Germany for a year to study, but I’m not sure yet!! But other than that, things are a bit more ok now… Even if they did just kinda work themselves out with no help from me!

I’m not so sure whether it was actually the right thing to do really… I think it was just that the 5 months beforehand were a mistake. I don’t really know :-( But anyway, not doing too well with this goal!

well… im only 15, i smoke, i drink, im getting kicked out of school.. i havent really got much going for me atm:( when i was 13 i got told i had been diagnosed with scoliosis which wasn’t very good. at the age of 14 i had my operation for my scoliosis (curvature of the spine, mine of which was on a 89 degrees angle) it took me quite a while to recover. i was off school for ages and failed all of my prelims because i never revised which is my fault .. my mum and dad also split when i was 7, my little sister was 3, and my mum was expecting.. because my dad cheated on my mum with her best friend. i have a great boyfriend who does stand by me and we get on so well.. i have a job also but im really scared about my future i have rather bad anger problems and take out my anger on everyone and get myself in alot of trouble. i really want to make something of my life and really dont know how.. i have my share of good and bad friends i just need help with what to do seriosly.. money what i make goes on rubbish aswell… someone please PLEASE help me:(:(:(???

I’m 17 and have nothing to live for, no one understands me, no one knows me. I left school last year and dropped out of college because of lonliness and depression. Ive had no freinds for about 4 years now, (and im not over exagerating) my family just think im being sill but the worst thing is when you think you have got your family supporting you, my own brother, cousin and aunty cut me out there lives because they were ashamed of me, my grandad basicly said he did care about me and i dont even recall a conversation with my uncle ever. Over the past couple of years i have put quite alot of weight and i must admit i dont stand out in the crowd and never have. i have always been someones freind or relative. i wasnt even noticed sometimes. I was bullied and that was the only way people noticed me. no one has ever known me for me which there is nothing to know.
Im jobless and i have no money. i am constantly being critisized for not doing anything with myself, no one understand what i actualy go through. I have got no confidence and low self esteem.
I dont exactly dress nice or ever look nice. I feel my past is going to ruin my future. I am a waste of space seeking guidence on help to SORT MY LIFE OUT. i feel that if this doesnt happen soon i am going to crack.

Over the past two days I did something which I thought I’d never do. I’m glad that I’ve done it but it’s still quite sad anyway. It should make things easier from now on though.. I think? It was definitely the right decision anyway.

I have so many decisions to make right now, all of which are important. I don’t know what to dooo. I know what I should do for the most part I guess, it’s just really hard to do it =( I don’t like hurting people’s feelings either so that doesn’t make things any easier. I hate it!

im 19 and everything in my life at the moment is falling apart. iv just lost my job because of being so unhappy im making myself ill so that just really adds to the problem! now me n my partner have no money coming in at all, because he wont help me by getting a job. i guess thats where all this started, presure. i care for my mum so have more presure in my life than any normal 19year old, my partner lives with us and when he lost his job things went from bad to worse, all of a sudden i was the only person bringing a little bit of money into the house and its been up 2 me to pay most of the bills and i just cant do it! iv also recently found out that i cant have children, so iv been trying to cope with that aswell. i dont feel like i cant talk to my partner, whenever i start to i feel stupid coz i know he wont understand. he goes out most of the time anyway. He seems 2 have a normal life, goes out with his friends, drives around in his car, doesnt really worry about the rent and bills, just carries on as normal, which in a way i hate him for, how can he just carry on as if nothing? i wish i could do that, but then if i didnt worry about it and try to sort it out who would.
My friends dont really understand and just party on without me, most of them dont even bother to ring me anymore coz they no i cant go out partying with them. My mum is the only person i can really talk to and she gets it, she understands, no one else seems to, but she cant help me. So who can? i feel so sad and lonely all the time, its starting to affect my relationship and i just cant cope anymore.