Have a torrid erotic clandestine purely physical affair

aw, what the hell lol

Both of two boys I talked about in my earlier post revealed themselves just as real crap.
As person, I mean.
So nothing done with the second and goodbye with the first one.
I am so closed…and everyone seems to me so vulgar and poor.
It is really really difficult for me to get interested and involved in someone. :-(

...with the first one.
I find him a wonderful guy. Really wish to see him again soon. Very soon.

Well, there are these two guys.
First one has a crush on me since last october. I don’t know if I really like him, but the way he’s going mad about me is starting something in me…
Second one is very very very VERY sexy and is driving me crazy…can’t think about him without getting wet (blush!).
He promise me multiorgasmic nights and I don’t have any doubt he is the lover I’ve always dreamt of…
But…
I still have difficulties to let go.
Many fantasies about both of them, but no fact yet.
When it comes to decide where and when, I escape.
:(

Loneliness is expected if not predicted…

Anyway, those were crazy days I’m gladly put behind, no regrets at all…but I’m too old now for such daily romps.

Last one was in that hammock, I can’t avoid smiling everytime I see that picture. It was dark, we found each other at the same place watching the sea, we’d seen each other around the town, Choroní, a small fishermen town in the venezuelan coast. A noisy couple was making it out downstairs, guess that was the tipping point.

... till you nearly get caught! Then you get all paranoid!

I have never regreted NOT sleeping with someone

a crazy wild sexual relationship with a hot (french) boy was everything i needed…couldnt last forever, of course, but so wonderfully guiltly satisfying while it does…like chocolate cake, but better.

I’ve always wanted to do this—break out of the “proper”/”good girl” mode … at least once. Sounds fun.

I might as well do this sooner rather then later—while I’m still unmarried, young, cute & un-saggy.

It reminds me of a birthday card I gave my co-worker once. It was a cartoon of a tiny, really old lady in a wheelchair sitting in front of a birthday cake…about to blow out the candles. There is a big banner above her (saying Happy 100th Birthday Myrtle! or something) & she’s in a nursing home… surrounded by other old people in wheelchairs & some nurses. Anyway, there’s a thought bubble above her that says: “I should have fucked every man I’ve ever met”.

I don’t intend on taking this goal that far, of course (little bit excessive). But it’s a good message, I think. Life is short, but life can be wide too. Have fun today. Carpe diem & whatnot.

If someone isn’t availible to fulfill your needs or you can’t find someone, what’s the point? This is my second attempt and it’s frustrating to wait for it or even pursue it. Forget this!