not cry for a month

never mind.

starting 10/4/09!
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starting 10/1/09!

sounds impossible to me !
this is really big challenge!

I cry all the time! this is perfect!!

It was actually a lot harder than I thought. I guess it took me knowing I couldn’t cry (or rather wouldn’t to achieve this goal) to realize that I was tired of holding all my emotions in. So, in a way it was worth it because it showed me how bad it was to hold things in.

I don’t think I could have picked a worse month to do this.
But so far, I’m doing good, and hopefully I’ll make it.

I hardly ever cry, but I’m going through a pretty rough time in my life. I haven’t cried about it yet, and for some reason I feel like that’s the only thing keeping me together. So I’m starting this today, and hopefully it will all be over by the time the month is up.

Well…I just failed 19 (I believe) days in. An online friend claimed to take a bunch of pills so when I got on the line with police (who were fucking useless by the way) I broke down HARD. I was pretty scared.
But I am willing to start over again from the beginning. See, this is why I need to do this. Breaking down DURING an emergency when you’re supposed to be giving crucial info is NOT okay…

Well, it’s been 2 weeks since I started this and so far so good! I’ve had several close calls, but so far not a tear has fallen from these eyes! I really hope I can keep it up.