It’s the second final day at my current job and I am facing a life of unemployment again. It’s been almost a year from my graduation and I still haven’t found a job. (I had a traineeship for three months, and not well paid) So I need to prepare my self that I might not get job for months again. I will keep trying of course and do my best, but I think everyone knows how hard it is to find a job during this difficult financial time. Especially if you don’t have much experience and you don’t want to do telemarketing.
Last spring, before my traineeship, I got a bit depressed. I was filled with negative thoughts and I found it hard to talk about it to anyone. I got more and more closed and only pretended to be happy. I don’t want to get back to that. I don’t want to feel as looser. The evenings and days are getting darker all the time too, and that will also have negative impact to my mood. So if I don’t find a job soon, I am sure I will have quite difficult times ahead.
So in order to keep myself happy (and not just pretend to be) I need to have a plan. I almost had a panic attack a few weeks ago when I started to think about the fact my job ends soon and I got rejection for a job that I applied. And last week I cried myself to sleep cos of this. So that was kinda wake up call that I shouldn’t take this lightly. This is something I need to process. Don’t avoid it. And don’t take the rejection letters personally.
So the plan is:
1.Not to wake up later than 9 am. I currently have really good routines of waking up early and laying in the bed to noon isn’t good for my mood.
2.Search and apply jobs every day. Use at least 2-3 hours for this.
3.Do exercise daily. That increases the “happiness” hormones in brains. Plus it’s good for my health and self esteem if I manage to loose couple kilos.
4.Meet friends at least 1 or 2 times a week.
5.Talk about what’s in my mind. If the people really love me and care about me, they do have time to listen my troubles. Don’t think that they don’t want to help you or don’t care to hear about it. Don’t keep it all in my head. Often those things I think in my mind feels ridiculous when I say them aloud and I see that those things that I have fear won’t happen. But it’s important to say them, cos otherwise they will just grow big and cause bad feelings.
6.Do fun things every day. Things that I enjoy.
7.Think about places where I could meet new people and be useful. Is there perhaps some voluntary work that I could do?
8.Keep in my mind all the positive things that I have. And remember that eventually everything will work out and I’ll be fine.
9.Don’t stop pursuing my dreams. When things feel impossible, try harder. 20 months ago