but I’d like it to happen more. The jewelry is definitely art, but I miss woodcarving and painting. 5 years ago

I decided I’ll learn a new medium. For some reason I want to try gouache. I went to the art store and put together a little “starter kit”, got home and started messing around, then discovered that I need to learn something about this. I never learned how to paint with paints, and liquid media are so different from dry that just winging it isn’t working for me. I don’t even know how to mix colors! So I went to the library and there was actually one book specifically on painting in gouache. (There were about ten thousand on painting in watercolor!)

Hey, ma, look at me, I’m starting! 6 years ago

for myself to start. I even had a dream about this, but my recollection of it is very hazy now. I was going back to art school I think, and it felt very right to be there. I know I need to do it. I am starting to feel very empty and uninspired about everything, and I know it’s the lack of creative expression in my life that’s eating away at my energy. Come on. Just do it dammit. 6 years ago

It just seems that the cats, the job, and trying to keep my apartment clean take all of my time. Plus I have no place to get messy where the cats won’t get into it. I guess I just have to work small and neat. After all, it doesn’t really matter what the medium is, does it? Just create again, let that energy in to manifest in this world, that’s the important thing. Say a prayer, put down some lines and color, make something out of nothing. I don’t know why. I just know that it’s important. Everyone keeps telling me so. How many times do I have to hear the message before I will heed it? 6 years ago