become a successful artist

Procrastination keeps me from achieving this goal… that and jealousy and shyness too, I guess.

Here, too, is a goal I’ve had since 8th grade. Seems kinda pathetic that now at 24 I’ve made no progress… I’m so afraid of failing that I prepare and prepare but never get aroung to painting anything… And then (negatively thinking) I’m scared that even if I could get myself to paint something I thought was worthy and put it out there for the world to see or perhaps even to buy, no one would care. I guess that’s life, but it doesn’t make it any easier..

Also, this is why I specified my wish to become a successful artist. That makes this goal much more difficult; anyone can be an artist. The amount of questionable talent on the internet alone makes that obvious. And to me successful means gallery showings, income and the occasional contest win.

Now, wishfully thinking, I’d like to complete this goal before I turn 25 this summer. Before I’m no longer considered ‘young’. But I’ve made numerous empty vows for the last 5 years, so this year will probably be no different. Maybe this site will help me change my habits for the better, tho…

How in the world am I going to make this work?

This is like “can I really do this?” I try everyday to make a little more art and reach my goals. But I have trouble completing pieces for presentation and I’m scared to show people my work because of this.

I want to do it…maybe make it a reality in the next year or so. Or at least be on my way and have a real portfolio in the next few months. At least 6 of my 42 things have to do with this goal. One step at a time…

YES! I got into Camberwell College of Art (part of the Uni of Arts, London). I’m going there to do my one year foundation course in Art & Design. I was so so nervous about not getting in because my work, compared to everyone elses in my class who got in, wasn’t that great. I was so relieved to get in.

This is the first step towards my goal. I really hope that things work out at Camberwell and I’m so excited!

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