have self-confidence

I’m like 99% sure that my total lack of self-confidence is more or less the root of all my problems. Too bad I have no idea how to go about gaining self-confidence. It seems like a catch 22… if you have the confidence to work on improving your confidence, you’re already self-confident. Or something like that.

From someone who had none, and couldnt even walk outside my parents front door alone, now I have tons and go out all the time on my own, facing the world with head held high being who I am! It’s great and I feel fantastic.

After all, I have some self-confidence. Sometimes I don’t feel like the way. To be continue in goal “Be more confident”. Thank you for all your cheers!

The following are something I learned from the previous class besides the movements.
- Eye contact and smile, I’m still working on this
- breaking my own rules, need to work on this, as well
- feel good to be sexy, hmmm… a little bit but mix feeling good and shy
- playfulness
- enjoy teasing, yap that I got that, not that I am able to do it or not
- daring
- it takes hard work for being a stripper
- size does not matter to be sexy
- look like turn on myself…???

Next week, I’ll wear 6 inches hells at the class. Not so sure what am I going to do with it after the calss but… ha ha ha

Oh btw, I tried the movement to a guy and it worked great! That was easy. (FYI, It’s only teasing and no sex.)Ah ha!

I completed the three classes.

Abusolute pushing the envelope experience!!!
It’s about being comfortable with my own skin!

I will continue in November.

I admit sometimes I’m a sucker for infomercial and kind a dupe. OK, Here was sales pitch for me.

“Fears will be overcome! Empower Yourself! Embrace your womanhood and express yourself!Confidence will be boosted! Explore your personal boundaries with nothing but a smile! Use what you learn to improve your everyday life!”

What do you think that is? It’s a striptease class by a former exotic dancer. It’s tonight that I signed up for. Don’t worry no one will be stripping. I was thinking about this for quite a while. How silly!? But It’s time for action. I want to be comfortable/relaxed with myself and I thought it might help my confidence and might strip off a pretense. who knows? If I learn some sexy movement that would be a bonus. To be cotinued.

working on develope self-confidence. The problem is I don’t want to be arrognce. I guess I have a side of arrogance that I’m afrid of.

I was supposed to go down the shore today with my friends. I didn’t, and I don’t even know why. I knew I didn’t like the whole tkaing off the shirt thing, because I’m overweight, but that wasn’t even it. I think it’s a confidence issue, but I’m so lost.

My dad tells me all the time that I’m a piece of shit, so it;s obvious where my lack of confidence comes from. My mom doesn’t want to see me alone in high school, but it seems like I’ve lost almost all of my friends anyway. I need help, can anyone help me?

I’m feeling decent about myself. I think I’m fat as a walrus, but not as hideous looking as one. I’m not a dumbass, but not another Einstein either..I’m at a happy median with that for the most part.
It works..

I felt rather good about myself today..well, until I got into my brother’s car..when he was picking me up. He had a bunch of friends in his car. They like gave me weird looks, I look rather strange and they’re all wiggerish losers. So, why should I care if they looked at me as if I were absolutely nothing? o_O
Yeah. Yeah. I don’t..

Secretely I do..NO! I don’t. Rawr. Kill the negative thoughts.

Overall I felt pretty confident today.