start all over

3 years on this thing, and its been interesting. Took a couple of hiatus(es?) from here to live life, and sometimes escape life, and, again, I learned alot about myself. But coming back and looking at these old goals, well it just makes me sad. A part of me has died. I know that sounds overdramatic.

But when i read my old entries on here, I feel the difference in me. (I mean c’mon…, a fetish model???). That youthful, energized, I-can-do-anything-if-i-plan-it-right-feeling is officially dead. That curious, why is the world the way it is?, and why am i the way i am ?period for me is completely over. Im getting just “old”, and that makes me scared because I really dont mind.

But i know im back here on THE 43 for a reason…
im not supposed to go out quite like that.

So i guess im in that Phase Two period of a womans life.
I have a new perspective, and new outlook, some bumps and bruises,
but thank GOD, at least I know who I am!

LETS DO IT AGAIN

I’ve got to build a life, get a new car, find a new job… it’s time to go home and heal my heart and figure out what I need in order to be happy.

Id do anything to start thiz whole school year all over again….i fucked up and i kno that i can be soooo much happier!!!!!! Id kno who to talk to and who not to talk to….id kno….im just not happy right now with my life….isnt high school sopposed tobe amazing

Okay, so I did not really want to start all over, or maybe I did, just a little bit. But it feels amazing! I am not sure what will happen next, I don’t know what the future holds, but now I am back in control of my own life; so, I do know that the possibilities are endless.

Okay, so I did not really want to start all over, or maybe I did, just a little bit. But it feels amazing! I am not sure what will happen next, I don’t know what the future holds, but now I am back in control of my own life; so, I do know that the possibilities are endless.