living a life where everyone you have loved and put your trust in has let you down. later in life this is so hard to accomplish. you have to stay conscious of the things you do to sabotage yourself. accepting love shouldn’t be this difficult. i wish i really knew how to do something that i have truly hoped for for so long.
How to accept love
How I did it: Decided to try - let down defenses. Meta-dialogue to put fears and misgivings and insecurities on hold or bracketed-out enough to see caring as a gift and to accept it as such.
People doing this are also doing these things:
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is probably more accurate. In any case, I’m not very good at either.
I should probably give up on this goal. I’ll give until the end of the summer and if there is no improvement, then I will give it up.
The goal I need to work most on. Then again, isn’t it just suppose to just fall into place….or is this one of those things you have to work at? I have no idea…
I suppose the part that I would need to work on is to come to the realization(or acceptance) that letting someone love me or me loving someone does not mean compromising my independence.
Or something like that…


