The hardest thing about working on this goal is coming to the realization that I am not actually a kind or loving person. I am with a select few; my husband, my kids, my few close friends, some extended family members. Pretty much everyone else I view through the lens of suspicion and mistrust and disregard. Of course this affects how I interact and communicate with people. If I can keep kindness at the forefront of my heart this will help me communicate with anybody better…I don’t have to like you to be kind to you. 1 month ago

There is a situation this summer where I will have to interact with someone I would rather not…can’t say too much about the situation, but this is not…a good person or someone I would want to befriend or even be nice too. I actually feel a lot of contempt and disgust for this person, but I will try to be cordial and polite. And kind. 11 months ago

do this enough with Chris. I feel comfortable enough with him to be myself, but then something stressful will come up and then I’ll snap at him…and then I’ll cry about it and be absolutely filled with self-loathing. And I fucking hate it. Sometimes I feel as though I can’t control it. 15 months ago

to breakfast out this morning. Probably didn’t need it all, but it was delicious. Wrote a note on the napkin saying ‘Thank you :)’ just before I left. 18 months ago

how do I show this aspect of myself when attending interviews?? 18 months ago

at this today. I noticed a baby bottle on the ground a little way away from a pram with a mother and her baby, but didn’t pick it up. I should have. 21 months ago

Four months to figure out some way of being kind and loving at the wedding. Four months to ensure I don’t stand there with waves of hatred and disapproval radiating off me. Four months to be kind, loving and open in this particular situation. 23 months ago

but firm and fair with the students I teach while student teaching :) 2 years ago