find things that make me happy and record them now and then

I am not so happy that my boss doesn’t like drumming. She does think it’s good for the clients, but she doesn’t want to suffer it.

GAAAAHHHH!

But we’ll find a solution, and next year we’ll have drumming AT LEAST every other week. Rather every week.

Ok. I am happy to report that I have come to terms with the person I had problems with in my last big wail-post
^{(I feel awful)}

I have apologized, she says she isn’t angry, we have peace. And we have agreed to disagree. Because even though I have made mistakes she has angered me, too (my mistake was not to tell her that).
I think the base of this problem: she’s a Leo and I’m a Cap. I just don’t really understand Leos, and they don’t get me.

But I am so relieved that we have peace, and that is some of that Leonine … lordliness (?). I would have wanted to discuss and get things clear, but she just wants to forgettit.

Totally not my style, but I’m doing it her way this time, coz she was more wronged than I.

Phew. One relieved Cap: me.

<|8)

Today I spent mostly in bed… I didn’t even want to turn on Comp, but then I thought, ok, I need to know what’s going on at all those stations – sites, online. <|8)

But I notice I can’t get anything into my brain. I’m very tired and a bit hung over.

Yesterday I went to a concert. Lady of the Dan had invited me, it was a small band – 2 acoustic guitars, an electric bass, a violin, the violin played by LotD’s wife (they’re not really married, but together for many years).

It was really really nice! They played American folk (I knew only a few of the songs), the sound was warm and, yea, tender, and oozed a lovely hippie-feeling. It was so much better than I had expected, and I totally enjoyed the evening. I had brought my darabouka (Egyptian drum), and of course I (and LotD) was the last to leave. When all the guests had gone and only the band was still there we played a few songs together, and they very much liked the drumming.
I don’t really think they need drumming for their sound, but they definitely could do with better singing. If I get the chance…

Oh well, whatever. It was such a great evening!

And I was having a dance-therapy session last Saturday, which was lovely and very energizing, and I’m practising 3 lovely instrumental songs with a client at the facility where I work, he plays electric guitar, I drum, and we’ll perform (what a great word…) at the facility’s X-mas party.

I am very happy and grateful for the music that’s part of my life Here and Now.

<|8)

And now I’ll get myself back to bed…

• The drum circle I was going to, erm, conduct? direct? offer? at work had to be cancelled twice, coz I was ill, but yesterday it finally happened.
  Only 4 clients took part, but we were loud enough for 20, and it was great fun. Clients loved it, the few who didn’t drum but stayed at the facility did even groove a bit with our beat. And I noticed I am good at teaching people.
  And I am good enough at drumming (for gigs like this one).
  And normally, when I come home from work I am really exhausted. Not in a bad way, just terribly tired. But yesterday I was bouncy.
  Drumming is healthy and good in so many ways!
  I will talk with the team, and I hope we’ll agree on offering this once every week.

• Those two weeks of sickness now seem to me like some – what’s the word? – healing crisis. Also the insights I gained because of the “I feel awful”-stuff. I don’t feel awful any more, I feel determined to learn and change.

• Did I mention that I love my new work? It’s not much money, social work is not being paid well, and there are many changes going on with my employer, Condrobs society. Structural changes, less money to spend -
  so things are not bright and pink
  but I love my work, and I am growing into it.

• There are a lot of sad things happening at the moment, and I feel this is an intense tide.
  The last New Moon was indeed a dark one. Intense and dark. But I also feel that this is a time to learn and to grow. For all of us.

Urticaria is back.

After one week off coz of a neall bnad cond I HAD to go to work today. Thank the gods that I still had some pills here, from the last time.
They did help. I am still full of red spots, but they don’t itch. Much.
AND, which is the reason I am happy, now I am absolutely sure where this comes from: Chinese food. Or, rather, glutamate. Which is, unfortunately, often the same.

is coming on strong. I got a bad cold and won’t go to work this week. Which is nice, coz I rather spend my time reading, at the moment.
Erm, and translating, of course.

Friday DPM is coming over for a day, looking forward to that.

It’s getting really cold outside, and I am very happy about many different bath oils, in the most lovely colours, AND this:

Isn’t it… ridiculous? And GREAT!

<|8)

I am happy that I feel a bit better.
Saw Moon today.

I am very happy that I got an off-day tomorrow. I’ll do some shopping and some posting in my poor neglected forum.

I am also very happy about C. J. Cherryh’s Chanur-series, which I am reading again, for the umpteenth time. It’s still good. <|8)

And… Doc being back next Monday’s nice, too.

I got linked to a real strange site, weird, a bit sinister, but also very fascinating, at least to me.
Yea, strange, a bit scary, and very much to my liking. kL3z

Not scary, but very sweet and mesmerizing and also … strange, a (probably) Portuguese song here

Also lot of vids with music by Tool there. I had totally forgotten about them. Will get CD asap.

Which one?

edit: the site is down, but the song is still online. And all the vids can be found here:
http://kl3z.blip.tv/

New Job:
Today I joined the Betriebsversammlung.
Can’t find a good translation. “Working council assembly”?
I’m not able to vote, because I am not a regular employee. But if I ever should become one I’ll run for the Betriebsrat (pick a translation yourself, please )

Tomorrow I’ll attend a Fachtagung about older (40+) drug addicts.

It does feel like a regular job. <|8)

It’s my 3rd week now, and I’m every week I’m loving it more.

Happy Vetch! <|8)

And I think this one will suit me best for now, rather than it becoming a daily chore.

^{Hope it’s OK if I join you Vetch}

• After half a month in my new job I can say I really like it. The team is supportive and cool, and I feel I am in the right place. Working hours are looong, and not much money; there are things I want otherwise, and things I would rather not have to do, and there is a lot of work looming ahead and I have to organize it (ARRRRGH!)
  but which job is all happiness? All in all I am truly happy.

• My 25 sessions of therapy are coming to an end in November, and Doc asked me if I wanted to go on after that. I say “YES, what do you say?” He says “yea.”
  Well, not exactly like that, but you get the point. <|8)
  Now the health insurance company has to say “yea, sure”, and Doc says they very probably will.
  Vetch is happy coz Doc thinks she needs more therapy?
  Oh well. Vetch is happy, coz she wants more therapy. <|8)

• Still happy about Hekate, Hermes, and the amazing libation hip flask which I found today, and I didn’t pay 5.99, but 0.50 (which is the reason I bought it. It’s incredible. Pink with tiny paste gems. Amazing.)