quit treating my body like a rental car

I already knew that but it was recently proven to me again: I can’t deal with too many things in my life.
For instance, I have to deal with a family crisis so I can not control my weight anymore.
I’m getting strech marks again, which I hate, but I don’t have the energy to deal with that right now.
Hope it’ll work out soon though.

... a crazy day. I was at the hospital from 8:30am to 4:00pm but had one hour to have lunch with my dad.
I didn’t even have time to complete my patients’ chart and I’m afraid the intern will have done it.
After that, took the subway to get to my …4 o’clock class >> 6:00pm.
Grabbed a book at the library and hang around town till 7:00pm; visited a flat, got back home.
Spent two hours on the phone trying to figure out what the heck my sister is doing. Didn’t even have dinner (so eated sugar right before going to bed).
My cat woke me up early today so I’m exhausted. And though it’s in a good way, I’m looking forward to sleeping in on Saturday morning!

I’ve been having a hard time dealing with this one lately with classes starting again and spending a week at my parents’.
I need to find some motivation again to, at least, stabilize my weight. And most of all, to stop treating my body like cr*p.

I got a foot massage yesteday; and a back massage before that.
This was so nice. I think I’m going to cut out some things in my budget so that I can afford this more often :)

Yesterday and tomorrow: my cousin’s getting married!
I’ve been losing weight for this event. But I also knew I would be able to eat whatever I want (the food’s gonna be great :p).

Anyway, this is not a very good way to go but … I’ll deal with it! I’ve never had my weight so down and I’m so motivated it should not be a problem.

I’m getting better at this. I started recently exercising (it has been such a long time) and I stopped having “boulimia” days.

1. started walking to get my lunch at work instead of driving.
2. scheduled massages each Friday to de-stress

I woke up confused with a pounding head to see 5 empty beer bottles, a crushed bag of Lay’s Potato chips, and an empty jar of salsa by the couch. Vaguely remember eating chips and must have got some salsa in there because it was dribbled on my shirt and the pillow on the couch. Errgh, will resolve not to wake up like this again for quite some time.

Bad thing: I just ate a ton of bread (and it’s not even dinner time).

Good thing: I now have an appointement scheduled with a doctor.

Yesterday, I ate crappy food because I was really angry (for various reasons).
I can not say I regret it. I just needed to let it out.
I’ll concentrate on what I’m eating today (+hopefully, the rest of the week).

Shower + getting well dressed to go out