lose 45 lbs

I joined Weight Watchers! My WW journey began yesterday.

Well, my official diet starts today. I’m going to work my ass off this year to become healthy. I’m ready. I’m so ready.

Current weight: 176.

I currently weigh about 180. My goal is to weight 135 by the end of this year. I want to do this by living a healthy lifestyle, eating well, and exercising. I’m not going to keep a journal though, bleck.

i want to loose it

I’ve lost 18 lbs! Woohooo1

monday 6 oct

I love food, and I love it to be delicious, fattening, guiltful and in large quantities. This, more than any other reason, is my downfall. I get cravings for cheesesteaks and Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups. I combine emotional extremes with the act of eating. Whether I’m really happy or particularly sad, I think generally about eating.

It isn’t that I haven’t cared about my health or self-image. I’ve gone in and out of regularly working out at the gym, and I’ve logged many miles underneath my shoes during many “marathon training” missions. I’ve cared a lot, actually.

Constantly I go in and out of feeling horrible. Of feeling exhausted and drained. Of feeling disgusting and sorry for myself. Of feeling like my girlfriend is getting a pretty raw deal because she is thin, athletic, and gorgeous and I am carrying around an extra 50lbs of self-loathing weight.

I want to go to the beach, go to the pool, go to a waterpark and feel good about my body and just be able to have fun because I wouldn’t be thinking about how terrible I look. It’d be nice to buy a new wardrobe, too. Something that won’t be required to try to disguise my fat.

There’s plenty of people who have adopted that “whatever makes you happy approach.” And those people despise Abercrombie and Fitch ads that parade ideal images of teenage sex symbols. I despise them, too. Only because a man shouldn’t look quite that pretty. He should be athletic and hardened. That’s what I want. I despise that “feel good” way of thinking. I hate fat people. It’s repulsive, and all that I can think about is how I’m getting dangerously closer to being in that “fat forever” category where it’s just seems too far out of reach to even care. I mean, I guess that’s ridiculous to think that way, but even at this point I can’t imagine what I look like underneath all of this fat.

There’s only one way to find out. And that’s why I need a last stand. Some real trench warfare against my weight problem and self-image issues. This is why I’m “Inspired By Chuck” because I’m counting on being headstrong and keeping a fire under my bottom by constantly reminding myself of the reaons why I need to lose weight, look my best, and be overall healthy. I want to live a high quality of life and the road to achievement is paved in hard work.

I lost 45 pounds in 20 weeks! I did it doing Weight Watchers, exercising (cardio and weight training) and eating healthily!! I want to lose 66 more!

I got a little behind on this one. Really I let myself get behind because I didn’t want everyone to know how bad I was doing. Moment of truth has come…

Week 9:
I gained one pound. Not so good. Little depressed. Depression sent me to not caring.

Week 10:
Even worse. I gained 1.5 pounds. The depression from week 9 made me want to eat things I shouldn’t. I ate out a lot.

Week 11:
Good week. I disciplined myself to eat right with the exception of a child size ice cream at Cold Stone(who could resist) and a small piece of pie on Easter. I lost 4.5 pounds this week!

Total weight loss as of today:
20lbs! I reached my first goal.

The next goal is to lose 25 lbs by May 7th. That is the last day of the weight loss challenge. I think I can do it if I set my mind to it!

Well its day 2 of lose 45 lbs. So far I have had an egg white omelette with a little cheese, tomato, and spinach. Keep your fingers crossed that I make through the day without a cookie! (damn girl scout cookies)