weigh 128 lbs

this morning, i was 132.5
i can’t stop binging and purging. it’s making it more difficult to log my calorie intake and i’m gaining so much weight.
i’m 135.5 right now which means i did the master cleanse for nothing!!!
i really want to be back in the 120’s before my prom, which is on the 30th.
this goal is so simple! i can’t believe i’ve been trying to attain it for so long. wish me luck, people.

i was 130 this morning, and weight 132 right now.
i noticed watching tv makes me eat more mindlessly… and that isn’t good, no matter how healthy i’m eating!
i worked out for about 35 minutes on my elliptical and did some toning exercises. i feel very heavy for some reason. i really feel bad about eating as much as i did today.
i’m so close yet so far from my ideal body. i need to stop watching food network! i’ll just keep up the exercise and start anew tomorrow.

i gained and lost about 10 pounds since the last time i updated my progress on here. and now i’m back at about 130.
i just got off the master cleanse and i lost a lot of muscle mass, so i’m not expecting to maintain this weight when i start eating normally again. so i’m going to start working out again today and try to follow a healthy meal plan until i’m at my ideal weight.
i’ve decided it’s unreasonable to weigh myself as frequently as i do, so i’m going to try to limit myself to just weighing myself in the mornings (when i’m thinnest)!
:)

Well, I have 10 lbs. left to lose at this point. Not really trying that hard though. Eating pretty healthy…when I am hungry…until I am full, but not stuffed. If only I would start exercising then it would melt off in a heartbeat. Simply not motivated as of yet. Still in winter hibernation mode. This too shall pass. Anyway, I am comfortable with my body these days and spend much less of my time thinking about how to “look better” on the outside. Working on the inside first.

http://ellelyzette.blogspot.com/2009/02/beautiful-inside-and-out-feb-26-09.html

two pounds!!!! it shouldn’t be this hard but i still haven’t reached this goal. my 18th birthday (less than two weeks away) should be motivation enough for me to actually start trying… hopefully.

i can fix this.

so close yet so far.
today i had:
two peanut butter cookies = 180 calories
two tomatoes with one tbsp olive oil, balsamic vinegar, and mozzarella cheese = 360 calories

totaling 540 calories so far…

yesterday, i ended up going on a binge and purging everything so hopefully that won’t happen again today. i think writing down what i eat makes me more conscientious of my habits.

i’m weighing myself in the morning before i eat anything, so i’m still a ways off from this goal. i’m trying to eat less and 1,500 calories a day so i’ll keep track of everything here.

english muffin with egg = 220 calories
cooked veggies = ~50 calories
one peach = 60 calories
pumpkin ice blended drink = ~310 calories(?)

that’s about 640 calories for the time being which is less than i thought… that pumpkin ice blended definitely felt like my indulgence for the day.

anyway, i’ve still got the rest of the day to go and room for about 860 more calories. i’m feeling pretty good about myself.

i can’t seem to break 130 at all. i’m going to step everything up a notch this next week and see what happens.

So, I’m going for strength and fitness over being tiny. I think it’s a more practical and healthy goal. Yes, I want to loss the fat, but I want to add muscle. So, as long as I’m in shape and toned, I guess 128 is too light.