Don't fall in love

He drew me this on MSN.
i’ve never been in love or neither have i ever had a boyfriend in my life. im not ugly or anything,, its just i tend to reject guys a lot. im scared of getting hurt. but then now there is this one guy. At first we never really talked to eachother. But then because of my cousin, us three really got along. He talks to me on msn, not only me but my cousin too, ya she’s a girl. When ever i sign on MSN, i see that he and my cousin are on,, neither of them talks to me, and then i ask my cousin ‘is he talking to you?’ and shes like ‘yea’. I get so hurt. I think he only thinks of me as a friend. I am pretty sure he likes my cousin. She’s a beauty and yes she told me she likes him. She know i like him too. We’re only friends but i like him so much… He calls me pin nhia. Haha isnt that cute. But my cousin told me stuff like how he tells her story about his ex[es]. He also talked to her about love. im just so jealous. i hate myself so much. It really hurts me to know that those two flirt like crazy. This is excatly why i never want to fall in love.

i cant help but think of him
i hate him
and the funny thing is i hardly spoke to him before
he might turn out to be the type of guy i would hate
thats a good thing i guess since it will stop me from falling for him
but i dont know if thats a good thing
in the long term yeah
but grr i like him
im scared tommorow in school i know he’ll talk to me
last time he wanted to show his mate who i was and took him an hour to find me
sorry but thats so cute!!
im gonna hide =D

i decided after my first breakup i wont get into another relationship
basically the prick i was with was a lying cheating freak!
plus my parents are really strict and dont want me going out with a boy
and the fact that i did and went behine their back made me feel so fucking guilty
i promised myself that i wouldnt go into one again
but its horrible
becuase i just started college
and my main focus was to work as hard as i can so im able to go to a really good uni
but recently i had this crush on this guy
realllllllly cute too =[
and found out yesterday
he liked me as much as i did
i only wanted this thing to be a one sided thing
but i really want him =[
but its so messy becuase
and the fact that i really like him makes me not want to hurt him by telling him im not intrested when really i am =[
i hate this =[

he'll get in the way of my studies
hes not the same type of religion as me (big deal in my   family)
i'll be breaking my promise
if my parents find out im fucked! 
this relationship wont get anywere

I don’t fall in love, better yet, I CAN’T. (I think I’d like to try it though…)
I’m like, asexual forreal. :’D
It’s a pity; I always wanted to raise a family…

this doesn’t really have to do with this goal but I had to write it down. Any girl has sexiness and feminine wiles but if that’s ALL you’ve got then that’s all you’ll GET. Nothing interesting or emotionally fulfilling. And for a smart girl, that is NOT enough. I have this goal because you shouldn’t have the GOAL to fall in love… it needs to just happen.

What can I say? I fell in love and am seeing someone now and am quite happy!

Ok, I’ve fallen in love but it never lasts long until someone breaks my heart. So I have the purpose of NOT falling in love of my current crush. I like him so far, but the rest is up to me.

It’s hard not to. :( but falling in love would sometimes break your heart. Falling in love with someone who doesn’t love you back hurts, it’s better not to love.

This is impossible. I am falling in love, I can’t help it.