Stop second guessing myself, decide what I really want and make it happen

Well the class I wanted was canceled last week and I had to choose another one. So I did and it starts tonight! I week sooner than the other class, but I have my books, my book bag, new pens…I’m set. :-) Looking forward to getting back into the school routine!

I started taking some basic college classes in the fall of 2005. I kept taking classes until Fall 2007. Health and family issues have been my excuses. I can push myself more. I know I can. I’m ready to start taking them again. Even with work getting crazy and having to go back to five days a week instead of four, I have been reviewing my class options.

I’m praying I can handle this. I want the outcome that is for sure; I want to teach. Simple as that. I have never had a better feeling in my gut than when I talk about teaching or hear a teacher talk about their job. Of course I wish I would have figured this out 10 years ago, but I didn’t. I can only move forward from this day on. I do have to move though, I have to decide on one or two classes, what exact class or classes and I have to submit the apps. I’m never going to fulfill this if I don’t move; even baby steps, so what if it takes me 10 years to get a 4 year degree while working full time?!

Seems like every time I think about this something (some obstacle) pops up. I have to just do it. I have to reorganize my time and look at each obstacle in a different way; as a stepping stone, as some sort of benefit.

Working an extra day is extra money…That will pay for the class(es). Sometimes (for me personally) it takes an obstacle to motivate. Sometimes you have to be forced into something, even if it’s something wonderful and what you want to do.