express my emotions

(and I’m really happy to find that I’m improving on at least 1 of the 43 goals). Now when I’m not okay with something I say it more times than I shut up. I don’t refrain from crying at movies.
I have difficulties with happinness and anger. When I feel them, it’s in such a muted tone that I seem bored or something worse…

I am currently taking Interpersonal Communication. In that class, we learn how to better recognize our emotions and express them healthily to become a better communicator.

I would like to practice these skills. I would like to recognize my emotions and learn to cope with them a lot better than I am doing right now.

Don’t let your emotions get the best of you!

Recipe: Be attentive and notice what’s happening when I “disconnect” myself, or when I suddenly can’t talk.

Actually feel them.

Expressing my emotions is very challenging for me because im affraid, affraid of what I have endourd in my life up to this piont.
I am the type of person who takes everything negative that has happend to them in there life and throws it aside and never deals with it till one day something small will happend and it begins.
For me an overwhellming emotion comes over body. My eyes start to release tears that should have fallin years ago. Nothing I do stops them from comming. Even then I refuse to release this..this emotion filled monster that was created by me because i’ve never dealt with any of my problems little or big. I ask out loud to nobody “why…why is this happening to me”? My face stern because I was not crying but tears were comming down like rain. I couldn’t stop them more heavey now they came. I strain tencing my muscle’s to restain my emotional pain pounding and screaming trying to get out. “Fu**”! I yell gaining back control I continue fight and push back this monster back into the hole!
Just then my dad enters my room he had hurd my screams and now he sees me. Without asking one question he rushes towords me,hugs me firmly and says only two words.”Its ok”. Like an explosion boom! I let it out. All the emotion, problems, and negative vibes from people and there problems all of it everything. My dad stays quite and hangs onto me tightly as im crying so hard I can barely breath. Then suddenly as fast it came it left. And even then the only thing my dad had asked was if i was ok now?
that was when I was younger. Now I have been through so much more I have no way to vent. I also do not want to be in that weak state. besides im doing geat anyways im also stronger now so I can hold anything back. So why should I express them anyway?