be calm

because i’d be better off a lot calmer.

I don’t tend to let the big things stress me out but I do get annoyed when driving or if i’m late for something. I also have a lot going on trying to grow my business and keep on top of things. I’m boxing in a fight next Thursday too which is playing on my mind. To be successful in all of this I need to keep calm and for the most part thinking about being calm each day is actually working.

Honestly, I’m doing leaps and bounds better than this. A pessimist would say it’s because my careful concern for other’s well being has been replaced with a jaded and sometimes callous apathy. A survivalist would say it’s self preservation. I’m generally an optimist so I’m just happy to be in the eye of the storm at the moment. I want to call the goal done.. but I’m sure there’s yet another storm on the horizon and we’ll see how I weather that one. At least that’s what the realist would say :)

I have one issue that I just cannot be passive about. And it is tested all the time. Be calm and carry on, be calm and carry on..

Not so good on this today. I had a phone “interview” with a headhunter and was gasping for air and shaky and freaked out. I was glad to have the opportunity to warm up, though since I have a bona-fide interview at noon today. I can’t think of how to be calm. I didn’t have any coffee today on purpose so I would be chill. Now, I am thinking about how ADHD people self-medicate with sugar (it does make me feel SUPER) but worry about how much and crashing and everything involved with trying to be calm. I’m certainly not going to get drunk.

I know the smart thing to do would be yoga.

I will start with some meditation (another thing on my list) and see if I can’t start down a path so I can be zen by the time I walk into the interview at noon.

I want to be calmer, and more relaxed. And it seems logical to first identify the obstacles that prevent me from being calm.

Previously, I had thought Aikido training and meditation could help me be relaxed. They did, but with little effect. My depression relapse, anxiety and suffering self-esteem, was slowing my progress. I wasn’t able to calm myself as much as I’d like to.

If I truly want to become calmer, I have to be at peace with who I am. To learn to love myself as a whole person despite what others will say.

To gain confidence as an individual.

With that said, I will be trying out NLP anchoring techniques. And learning how to accept my flaws and criticisms of other people.

Logen L. ( Logish Paradox : A Walk Through Reality and Fiction )

I want to feel calmer and more secure in who I am. Sometimes I feel like I am worrying about stuff and never enjoying the moment. I want to live life to the fullest and not waste any time worrying and being anxious.

I am calm, breathe, at the top of my breath I say I want to be calm. Breath is a natural tranquailizer remember to breathe out. I am calm

i’m not doing a very good job of being calm today.

oh calm..its my biggest wish in the life..i want to be calm in any situation…