Every time I think I’m getting over it I get sucked back in. I’m getting my hopes up again, I can’t help it. That’s all I’m going to say about that for now. Sigh.
Going back home tonight. It will be nice to feel grounded again. It’s going to be a rather hectic day – cleaning up the house and then dragging all my stuff and my cat back to my apartment. I’m also working a graveyard. I should probably try and sleep at some point, but I already know it’s going to be difficult. 3 days ago
Failing miserably with this, but now it’s one of my Health Month goals so I need to get going.
I’m right smack in the middle of my “weekend” (Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday) and I feel like I’m wasting it again. I’m house-sitting for my parents, which means I’m stuck out in the middle of nowhere unless I want to drive somewhere. I hate driving. I should be catching up on my reading but instead I’m sitting here watching bad TV and playing on the internet – being out of my element makes me lazy. Access to a TV makes me lazy. Can’t wait to get home and get back to a more productive schedule. 4 days ago
I used this day as my last “lazy day” before the new year starts and I have to get my shit together. Caught up on a bunch of TV to get it out of my system, because ditching out on that is one of my resolutions. I did get out of the house for a bit though – went grocery shopping and then sat on the pier for a bit. Sometimes when I go over that way I hope I’ll run into him and sometimes I hide so I definitely won’t. This time I was hiding.
My monthly lists and plans and goals and resolutions are all set for tomorrow. I didn’t go out tonight for a couple of reasons: 1 – I am rather depressed and didn’t really want to expose my friends to my misery. 2 – I’d like to start the new year off feeling healthy and un-hungover. 3 – I was afraid I’d run into him, or worse, him and his girlfriend. I’d pummel her, I know it.
I hope tomorrow is better. It’s a reset, a brand new everything. 2014, PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME2 months ago
I’m going to summarize my days on here for awhile. I’m hoping that having to write out what I did (or did not) do each day will help me to be more productive. I’m hoping it will get me off my ass. Accountability, blah blah blah. I’ll start tomorrow. 2 months ago
How I did it: I used to write by hand in a Moleskine notebook but I switched to an iPhone app called Momento instead. Now I write every day, sometimes more then once a day and sometimes only once, before going to bed. I still want to be able to write a diary by hand and maybe I'll switch back some day but for now the iPhone solution is perfect for me. I always have it with me, I don't have to turn on the lights and I can write even if my husband is asleep next to me. I can also take advantage of the short moments during the day, for example on the bus or when waiting for something. Read how I did it… 2 years ago