I am off work for the next three nights. I’m going to ask this dude to go out with me one of those nights. It seems to be the only way I can fathom getting over that other dude – attempt to move on.
I’ve been back home for a few days but have been working the whole time. Still trying to get my life unpacked and back in order. My apartment is a mess.
Don’t have much else to say at the moment. 8 months ago
Every time I think I’m getting over it I get sucked back in. I’m getting my hopes up again, I can’t help it. That’s all I’m going to say about that for now. Sigh.
Going back home tonight. It will be nice to feel grounded again. It’s going to be a rather hectic day – cleaning up the house and then dragging all my stuff and my cat back to my apartment. I’m also working a graveyard. I should probably try and sleep at some point, but I already know it’s going to be difficult. 8 months ago
Failing miserably with this, but now it’s one of my Health Month goals so I need to get going.
I’m right smack in the middle of my “weekend” (Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday) and I feel like I’m wasting it again. I’m house-sitting for my parents, which means I’m stuck out in the middle of nowhere unless I want to drive somewhere. I hate driving. I should be catching up on my reading but instead I’m sitting here watching bad TV and playing on the internet – being out of my element makes me lazy. Access to a TV makes me lazy. Can’t wait to get home and get back to a more productive schedule. 8 months ago
I used this day as my last “lazy day” before the new year starts and I have to get my shit together. Caught up on a bunch of TV to get it out of my system, because ditching out on that is one of my resolutions. I did get out of the house for a bit though – went grocery shopping and then sat on the pier for a bit. Sometimes when I go over that way I hope I’ll run into him and sometimes I hide so I definitely won’t. This time I was hiding.
My monthly lists and plans and goals and resolutions are all set for tomorrow. I didn’t go out tonight for a couple of reasons: 1 – I am rather depressed and didn’t really want to expose my friends to my misery. 2 – I’d like to start the new year off feeling healthy and un-hungover. 3 – I was afraid I’d run into him, or worse, him and his girlfriend. I’d pummel her, I know it.
I hope tomorrow is better. It’s a reset, a brand new everything. 2014, PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME10 months ago
I’m going to summarize my days on here for awhile. I’m hoping that having to write out what I did (or did not) do each day will help me to be more productive. I’m hoping it will get me off my ass. Accountability, blah blah blah. I’ll start tomorrow. 10 months ago
How I did it: I used to write by hand in a Moleskine notebook but I switched to an iPhone app called Momento instead. Now I write every day, sometimes more then once a day and sometimes only once, before going to bed. I still want to be able to write a diary by hand and maybe I'll switch back some day but for now the iPhone solution is perfect for me. I always have it with me, I don't have to turn on the lights and I can write even if my husband is asleep next to me. I can also take advantage of the short moments during the day, for example on the bus or when waiting for something. Read how I did it… 3 years ago