find someone who really loves me

Once I started trying to find the people I used to know, and started working on my other goals of getting over my social fear and dislike of people, sorting my life out, figuring out what I really want and want to do, this goal became easier. I have people who really love me, if I’m willing to accept that. Also, it doesn’t always have to fit my definition or terms perfectly, and you have to learn to see the differences. But there are people who love me for me, and my confidence in myself both supports that and feeds from it. (Not in a bad way.) This is a most gratifying and nurturing goal.

In my quest to define this statement to myself, I am learning that there are people who do, if I care to look, if I’m brave enough to accept it and search out more.

It’s strange. I always wanted to find someone who REALLY loves me so I could love them. I found it. Weird thing…...... I think he loves ME more than I love HIM. I mean, this guy is ALL about me. It’s definately worth it and is a surefire way to make a girl feel like a princess!!!!

I’ve been dealing with this situation for the almost the last 2 years of my life. I was with my now ex-boyfriend for like a year and a half. He told me he loved me twice but took it back everytime saying he wasn’t sure if he meant it or that he didn’t know what love really was. It killed me both times. I broke up with him because it became too much to deal with. After we broke up, he was really mean to me and said horrible things that I never thought someone I loved so much could say to me. After about 3 months of us being broken up, we tried to be decent with each other and are still trying. He told me he loves me and he knows he does this time. After it breaking my heart twice before I don’t know if I can really believe that he means it.