appreciate my partner every day

Oh, I’m trying to be a good girl friend, and while I went shopping today he was home painting the crafty room. So I wanted to get him something to show I appreciate him. The gift is now placed in the cupboard where we keep coffee, as I know he will be venturing in there sooner or later…And I’m hoping he’ll like the surprise:)

I’m sad to say that I feel like I’m failing miserably on this goal. I know it’s not an excuse, but this year has been hell for me, with my depressions and all that. And guess who’s getting most of my frustration – yupp, my lovely Mr.E, the only person who is always there for me, who cares, and forgives my stupidity and agressive outbursts. I’m sorry, and I will try to improve. Every day is a new chance to do what was not done yesterday, and I will do my best to break out of this pattern of negativity. Because he deserves it.

My boyfriend (also my best friend, my sanity, and my safety) and I have been together for over 5 years now. The last years have been amazing and have gone so fast – we have traveled a lot, studied together and are now building a home together. But there have also been hard times – losing a close one, depressions and hard words.
I know I am not an easy person to live with, that I have a quick temper and my own ideas about how things should be. And yet he is still here, with me, and we are continuing to plan our future together. I want to be better at remembering what an amazing person he is, and I want to be better at telling and showing him this. Every day.