be less paranoid

I think it’s all to do with living in the moment. I spend too much time second guessing people. Need to learn to take things at face value more, without becoming too naive obviously.

I’m jumpy and I have anxiety over all the wrong things. Taxes and grades are a breeze, I couldn’t care less. But at every possible moment I think somethings about to bite my head off. That girl from the ring, Chucky from Childsplay, even the raptor from Jurassic Park. It’s sort of funny, but not if you go about you2 life 24/7 jumping at every little noise. Last night I fell asleep at 7am just because I couldn’t sleep while the sun was down.

I think I’ve finally come to realise bad things will happen if they’re going to—and it makes no sense in worrying about it. And that maybe not everyone is out to get me..

i go out to party with my best friend…
our rules are:
– no sexual anything with guys we don’t know
– pee from a distance in those gross bathrooms
– 2 drinks max (we go out to dance)

in the spirit of girl-power-guys-suck-for-cheating we stick together

neither of us has had any sexual contact for just about 6 months, yet her std test came up possitive for and std…
HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?

now we are extra paranoid…

I used to be really wild. I was always the first one to dance at a club – I was always hyper and very loud and I had so much fun. Then one day, I was being my usual loud and overexcited self and I over heard someone say something horrible about me, someone said I was an attention seeker and desperate for people to look at me. I got really upset by this and ever since then, I behave in a way that I hope suits others around me. I mean, its not just that I worry about what people think about me, but I behave in such a fake way – and then worry that people think I’m being fake. Usually, my true self comes through, usually when I’ve had too much to drink, and I have so much fun, but I then spend the next week worrying about people thinking that I’m loud, obnoxious and vile – and I know most people are when they’re drunk, don’t think anyone else lets it ruin their life. It upsets me at work too, I’m a manager and I work so hard to impress my bosses that sometimes I think I’m a total suck up, if I’m criticized in any way, I start to really panic and consider leaving my job. And very recently, I’ve started to worry about what my parents think of me. I worry about how I embarrassed myself during my adolescence or got too drunk on my 21st birthday party. Its stupid I know, but I can’t control it, and when I start getting paranoid about what think, it leads on to another and before you know it, I’m totally depressed. I don’t know what to do, I’ve started avoiding social situations and sometimes I go places and try not to speak incase I get judged. I’ve been on anti –depressant, I’ve tried counseling and they didn’t help me. I’m considering hypnotherapy to try and train my mind away from that train of thought. Has anyone tried this? And does anyone have any advice on how I can sort my life out and be happy again?

i’ve been with my boyfriend for over a year now, we’ve had an almost perfect relationship and never had an argument. one problem, his ex girlfriend has come back on the scene and they’ve started talking more and more over the last couple of months. she keeps asking him to meet up and despite that she has a boyfriend shes told my boyfriend she doesnt really love him. i’m worried because they have broken up and been with other people and got back together agian a number of times. like the people you just cant get over. and i’m scared thats what him and her are. i don’t think he would ever cheat on me with a random person but i do worry he still cares for her. for a time they used to sleep together when they weren’t going out. hes four years older than me and i feel threatened by her and i don’t know what to do about it. i do trust him, and i don’t in my heart believe anything is going on but i keep dreaming about things going on between them.and its affecting us.help..

I can’t quite understand or completely explain how much I hate myself or my predicament or what has been done to me.

I feel like I am missing some vital part that would allow me to properly relate to people.

I am not the kind of person who thinks of doing something with other people.

I never think of doing anything with other people and yet I feel horribly lonely at the same time.

My natural instinct is to simply exist and take care of myself.

I feel so upset.

Everyone is having a good time – everyone is getting on and having a laugh – and only I am sitting here worrying – thinking that people would rather I wasn’t around – thinking that people are irritated by me – thinking that people don’t want to know me. I feel so shit. I feel so unwanted. I feel like people are laughing at me.

I feel like this because of the way I have been treated by people in the past, whereby, people would laugh at me, people would shy away from me, people would gang up on me and people would leave me alone. My reaction to all this has been to shy away from people, to suspect that they don’t like me. I am incredibly sensitive. If I get the slightest sense that people don’t like me, or have found something that I have done not to their taste, then I immediately run and hide away, and don’t go anywhere near them, because I don’t want them to react, I don’t want them to come out and hurt me.

For this reason, I have a complete inability to think of doing things with people, because I by organising things, by increasing my contact with people, I am increasing the number of opportunities for people to find out how shit I am and then to react by hurting me. It’s a wonder that I haven’t been abused more.

I am so upset. The only thing I can do to stop thinking like this is to believe that there is nothing inherently wrong with whom I am.

How do I overcome this?
How can I be any different?
What would I feel?
What would it look like?

Ummmm…. mainly just have low self-esteem. I’m an outgoing person, and make friends easily, but it bugs the hell out of me if someone doesn’t like me. I particularly have a problem with my Boyfriend’s friends- I just don’t seem to be able to interact with them properly, and I’m sure they think I’m total weirdo!
I need to not care what other people think; now all I need is a sure-fire way of doing that.

I think I’ve gotten better about this…

cut down on the weed, and if a paranoid thought sneaks up on u, dispell it. cast it aside, it can be done.