I had a hard child hood. And i think i sometimes use it as an excuse for things or reasons to hate my parents. I just want to forgive all of them and forget about everyting and move on and be happy!
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I had a promiscuous past….some real, some contrived..almost 30 years ago….and while I understand intellectually why things occurred, I can’t escape the need to fix things. I went on to a successful career, happily married and a mom…..but continue to live in a deluded hell in my mind, wanting to correct things….let people know the truth…when only I am the one who cares and I am talking to myself. It is like it was yesterday…a lonely sad teen with low self esteem, and age old story…but one I want to let go of.

