get better

I’d like to be more positive about it, but the only positive thing I can think of is is that I’m positive I want to be well for longer than a week.
:)

isn’t a puppy anymore… He’s 8 yrs. old.

Today I noticed the early signs of hip dysplasia, a common problem for big dogs like him. :(

I gave him some buffered aspirin & started him on glucosamine &
Omega 3 supplements. Then I took out a heating pad & put it on his right hip. That seemed to help, but it’s still sad because he’s still just a puppy at heart…

And this has nothing to do with my health, but I had to post it somewhere. Besides, when he hurts, I hurt…

I’m going to continue de-stressing, but it’s a good sign that hubby has a cold that I haven’t caught. My immune system seems to be slowly returning to normal.

So happy about that…

Appx. 20 colds this year.

In the past few weeks, it’s been shingles…
a cold…
a case of the flu (mild, thanks to Tamiflu)...
and another cold…

Dare I say that I think I’ve caught everything that can be caught, at least for now.

I have severe anxiety and depression. There are millions of things I want to do, but right now all I can do is breathe and take 15 minutes at a time. If I’m bearing something then it can’t be unbearable, right?

I went to work for a little over an hour today. When I left, he was fine, but when I came back, he was in bed with like four blankets over him, shaking from chills & burning hot. I was able to talk my doc into seeing him, even though hubby’s not his patient. Good thing, too. We think it’s H1N1, which is widespread here. We’re both on Tamiflu. Although I can’t say I’m thrilled about being exposed myself, I’m glad that I got on the Tamiflu BEFORE I got sick. Also, since hubby got it before I did, doc said that may be a sign that my immune system is recovering.

Anyway, it’s my turn to take care of him for awhile. I’ve never seen him so sick that he went to bed in the middle of the day. I really feel bad for him…

Nothing major, but I felt the effect of singing for almost 2 hours solid yesterday. Today I took a break & hubby went to the open mic without me. I wasn’t surprised to hear that that woman invited herself over this week. He said no in his usual way, but I have to admit it’s no fun having a woman basically chase your husband. I would love to tell her to back off, but under the circumstances, that’s not a good idea. Instead, hubby gives me subtle ways to point out that he is married.

Yesterday she sent him an email that was a full printed page. He forwarded it to me with a cc to her, asking me what I thought. I answered & her response to me was, “Thanks.” Her response to him was another page. Not fun to deal with that kind of stuff when I’m feeling bad.

I was able to dress up in real clothes today! Feeling much better…

but the rest of the time I’m in bed with my laptop, a good book, or some trash tv. I swear Real Chance of Love must be on every channel 24/7…

With a boatload of anti-virals, both the neuropathy and rash are healing, but I still can’t wear anything that touches my back. I’ve spent most of the last week topless. Hubby’s enjoying it, so at least SOME good has come of this…
:)

It seems that lately I’ve been OVER doing & it’s made me sick again. It’s time for me to take a long hard look at my priorities, and concentrate on keeping myself healthy for the things that really matter…

It’s going to mean distancing myself from some of the things & people that used to be so terribly important. They’re just not anymore, and the sooner I learn to admit that & loosen my grip, the sooner I can get myself well…