Find the Love of My Second Life...

So I had a pretty scary thing happen on Friday. Got me to thinking about things- the fragility of life and such. There is someone I think I really care about, but I am entirely too scared to say anything. I have zero clue if he has an feelings for me beyond friendship, and that’s why I don’t say anything. I do NOT want to ruin the friendship. That would break my heart. But, do I want to go through the next however many years knowing that I didn’t say anything? I don’t know. I need to sort this out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=omFqlr_kso0

did i have a nightmare last night. i remarried some way older man. even older than ex-husband (he’s only a decade older). in the dream i instantly knew it was terrible mistake. i mean he was well-heeled and respected, but he was just SO wrong for me. i kept trying to get internet access to research annulments.

hey, do you think i’m terrified of getting into another relationship?

duhhhhhh. ; – )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IA_ubhYgjAc

doesn’t mean I can’t do it again.

I had the love of my life, but that life is over.

Now for the love of my 2nd life. I’m not a go out and look for someone sort, so I’m just opening up to the possibility that there will be a 2nd love. Because I have had a giant wall around my heart for the last two years. I’m tired of that.