change my perception of my life, and make it fabulous!

I have everything (in decreasing order of importance):

1. my parents
2. my health
3. wealth
4. my job
5. no major problem of any kind
6. my pet.

As long as I have all of the above, I am the richest person in the world.

This extremely cute guy at the pool today, he really liked me. This means that I’m not bad in my swimsuit (all right, he saw me in water, so he does not have all the details of how I look out of the water, but still…).
Later, for coffee, I was pretty sexy I think. And I’m also 6 years older than him. I’m a young attractive woman: yay!!!
So, in spite of my overweight: men find me attractive, and not repulsive!
How relieving!!!!
I’m attractive all right!!! :D
That really feels sooooooooooooooooooo good :D
(I’m all smile, lol)

I came a long way since I was overwhelmed by my fears and phobias to the point that I was emotionally frozen and incapable of getting anything done (that’s how it was when I was in my twenties).

Step by step I have indeed come a long way. I still make mistakes – but that’s part of the process. That’s what life is all about: to get better, to make mistakes and learn something new, never mind if it hurts. To get better – even as your body decays. To become wiser without ever losing the connection with what we are, deep down.

That inner core never changes, it is what we are, and I have finally come to realize and accept that I must cherish – not try to destroy – it.

This is reason good enough to perceive my life as fabulous. I have forgiven myself, and always will.

And those who pose as perfect human beings: well, they are sham. No one is perfect. No one.

Why my life is fabulous:
- I’ve got the job of my dreams. The salary sucks all right, but I get lots of spare time and it is a great job anyway!
- I’m still beautiful and I will be for many years to come (let’s say 10??), provided I take good care of myself.
- I am good at sports, this gives me a lot of opportunities to meet men. Hmm.. I wonder why I don’t take full advantage of this! (but I will, starting October).
- By the end of this month I will have finished article no. 2 that will get published and by the end of September I will have finished article no.3. With these, my efforts will come to an end because I will have achieved my target and I’ll be able to focus on having fun, taking proper care of myself, travel, and be more sociable (I need this in order to find love: once I’ve found it, I’ll go back to research).
- These are the places where hopefully I’ll meet my guy: pool, gym, surfing centre, city centre (I’m going to have long walks, and just hang around), female friends (I only have two so far, BP and MA, but I hope to increase them as I become more available) and also my workplace: if I take proper care of myself I will also be more outgoing with the people I meet there, and you never know… I cannot think of any other ways to meet new people. This will have to do. Should I still be all alone next year, at leat I’ll be at peace with myself. I don’t mind a quiet life, all I want is somebody to share it with – if that’s at all possible.