turn over a new leaf

i had a bit of a harsh moment today where i had this really upsetting feeling that i had really fucked up, with my friends in particular. this has really encouraged me to take my goals seriously, to take myself seriously also. i’m going to try really hard to be a better person, just to be better natured, which i know i have in me, i’m not a bad person, i just have got into some really unpleasant habits. let’s see if i can make this work

Life is strange, something is badly wrong.

With confidence and courageous, I determine to run after the sunshine, with the strongest spirits that I had never had before in my life.

• Not leaving clothes all over the floor
• Laying out my clothes for the next day at night so I’m not frantically digging around trying to find stuff in the dark every morning.
• Always rinsing and putting my dirty dishes in the sink right away,
• Washing the floor more often (my most hated household chore!)
• filing my letters
• practicing cello every day (except Wednesday, cos I get home too late)
• Planning meals more carefully for the days when I know I’ll be home too late to start cooking (i.e. M, W, Th, F)
• just being less of a slob in general

I’m lazy, jobless, disorganized, and I can’t stick to my goals. I’m sick of it. I feel like I’m wasting my life and getting absolutely nowhere… I need to change. There’s so much I need to do… I have to start now or it will never happen at all.