My friend Toby told me one night that he loved me and at the time I was like “That’s BS. No one actually means that when they say it”.

Looking back, I realize now that he meant it.

In the past, the only other guy who has ever told me he loved me meant it in a “I love you. Now will you sleep with me?” way. And I know Toby didn’t mean it like that, I just freaked out.

And then a couple weeks later I told him I loved him, which makes me a hypocrite because I said it after claiming that he didn’t mean it.

And a week after that I apologized for yelling at him about it. But I still feel bad for going off on him in the first place.

In a way, I suppose you could say this goal is completed, but I don’t feel that it is. I want to be at the point where someone says “I love you” and I know that they mean it then. Not days or weeks later. 3 years ago