Be myself

be Strong now..
things will get Better
it might be stormy now ..
but it can’t rain forever

I am trying a raw diet for a week. To a lot of people that probaby seems really weird. I have one friend in particular who is not very opened and I know she would think the raw diet is a stupid idea. I was going to try to keep it from everyone because I figured they don’t need to know what I’m doing. But, I was with this friend and needed to stop by the health food store and talk to the lady there about what I am eating. I really didn’t want to go with my friend because she is so close minded but it was either go with her or not go at all. I decided I don’t care what she thinks. I am just going to be myself and tell her what I’m doing and if she thinks it’s weird so what! I feel pretty proud of myself for just being myself in front of her and not hiding but it’s just a baby step!

a month ago .. it hit me .. suddenly i look at myself and said ” what am i doing here ? this is not me , this is not my road ! these are not my people, this is NOT my life . and suddenly i felt as if for the FIRST time in my life i met ME ! ohhhh … i loved it , its a breath taking moment.. i suddenly saw the real me , i saw how my life should be .. i saw my dreams calling me to make it true ..
though its hard , to just walk away from everything u know , walk away from ur current job , ur current friends , ur current life style and try to start ALL OVER again! its SO SO hard , but it worth every minute … and u know what ? even if i couldn’t make it , i still want to try , its not just about the road’s end , its about the journy itself .. being u is amazing .. i feel it , now i just have to make it true in every way :)

I think that I am WAY to self concious! If you look at my goals you will see reasons that probably result in me hiding my true self behind this mask that I have created for myself!!! I think that the hardest part of doing this is going to be ignoring all of the critisism that I will recieve from people that aren’t even important to me!!!! I just need to remember this quote: people that mind don’t matter, and people who matter don’t mind!!!!

do you know why we are here? while everyone else is enjoying/ living their life.
the key is:
_{~~ We don’t let ourselves go ~}~

why you hate ur own soul? it is NOT about other people hating your true self. It’s all in your control
everyone has a diva soul inside their bodies. Let it out! let’s enjoy life with your soul, NOT your conscious! NOT your judgements!
LET IT OUT!!!

This will also entail understanding that yes I have had certain experiences and not others but I can still be who I want to be.

Then to know that I can be myself and other people should respect this.

I must also accept that I am who I am and not think that I am wrong.

Then opening myself up to others is essential.

This goes along a lot with not comparing myself to anybody. People have different paths and that is just the way that it is.

Sometimes i am myself
but sometimes im not
but im not sure when im being myself and when im not..
i just wish i knew WHO i was
does anyone else understand this? lol
Theres alot of things i havnt told different people and never intend to
Im only 16 though.. i dont think i know who i am exactly yet
but i havnt tried to act in a certain way to fit in, ive just never fitted in and got used to it.

Leave everything, that doesn´t belong to you, behind. Go straight forward and you´ll find out what really belongs to you and keep going on like this. Impressions get deeper if you don´t step into the footsteps of others and soon you´ll find out what it does mean to be yourself. I enjoy it more than ever before :D.

I’m fed up of being shy and hiding behind my friends. It’s time I came out of my shell and showed everyone who I really am