Currently in a specialised eating disorder unit and I’m doing really well! Finally getting the support I need and gaining both the mental and physical strength to beat this illness :) x 3 months ago

Im fed up of being threatened with hospital. Im fed up of not being able to eat food i love, i am getting fed up of being at the hospital, being weighed, being “told off”.. I want to have my life back, although im not physically anorexic anymore, the mental side is still very much in action. I am proud that i gained the weight, but i want to stop seeing fat, start seeing slim. I want to stop feeling rubbish, i want to feel good. I want my exercise back, it is what i love. I hate being on house rest, i want to get out, have fun, get my life back! I want to be off the meds and i want people to regret the day they ever called me fat! 10 months ago

i’m so tired of having to refuse food for the sake to be ‘beautiful’. i’m tired of the hunger killing me. the days in the hospital with a needle in my vien to give me my nutrition. the hunger driving me crazy. the many life support systems just to keep me breathing. my bones visible, my ribs seen through my bikini, i coundn’t take it much longer, the fear of dieing stood over me, thinking no one would love me and think i’m crippled. it just made me plurdge so much that i had to stay in the hospital for 6 months. i was tired, hungry, and hit an all time low of 39 lbs. now i’m 96 lbs. and got out of rehab six weeks ago. and on the road to recovery. 10 months ago