Once, I was more concerned about getting closer to YHWH (God) in general, but over the years, I have come to realize that He’s always with me, even on the days when I can’t feel Him as much as I’d like to. Of course, I could always stand to get a little closer, but at the moment, I feel really content with where I am in regards to my relationship with Him.
Having complete faith in Him? That’s a little harder. I know He’s there, and I don’t doubt that, but I just find myself worrying over little things that I shouldn’t be worried over, or being afraid when I should know that I’m always protected. I find myself taking matters into my own hooves (yes, I’m a brony & proud), instead of first turning to Him for guidance.
I view myself as an independent girl and I know there’s nothing bad about me making my own decisions. But I still want YHWH to be a part of those decisions, and to help me, and guide me down the path I’m meant to be on. I want to trust that He’ll always be there, no matter what, and I’m going to be alright. I want to know that He’ll never put me through anything I can’t face, and that I’ll always be safe as long as I have faith in Him.
That’s the main thing I want to get better at in regards to my faith. Just believing that YHWH has the power to do absolutely anything, and that He’s never going to let me down. I hope someday I can achieve that. 11 months ago