read over old entries just enough (to avoid falling back into bad habits)

Another though on this one: it’s really useful to see just how far I’ve come. What an amazing journey!

Ok to set the scene: long day, hard day, a day in which there was fun and laughter but also a bit of hardness and fail…balance. But I let the bad get me down just a touch. Ok so several shots of vodka touch…

BUT I decided that I would spend some time looking back and there it was the pertect contrast to my black mood letting me know that so far as life goes I’ve gotten up and gotten on. Burried down deep in my old blogs and entries there it shone.

I love this site because I’m inspired by the other 43 thingers. Sometimes I think I just need to remind myself that I’m a 43 thinger too!

Tomorrow (even with what I anticipate being quite the hangover) I wil get up and it will be ok cos I know that this is just part of the deal and I’ll keep on dealing.

I’m not one for looking back in detail. I’ve never sat and aimlessly flicked through old diaries. Depending on how I’m feeling at the time there is often too much there to think about…or sadly not even close to enough.

Having said that, there is value in reading back over some things. Just enough of looking back on the path to see how far I’ve come.

Just enough, not too much, just enough. Enough to remind me that yes, he really was bad news, yes, I can smile under pressure, yes, I have kissed in the rain. Yes, I’ve loved.

Not too much, just enough, not too much. I move forward. To look back could be to slow, to confuse, to detract, to stumble into old habits. To slide into the goo of memory and wollow in what is most liekly to be self-indulgent bullshit.

Let’s be honest.