Toryy91 TRYING TO LIVE
A new christian, but not a born again (YET!) Im getting there I swear it, I used to try and reason with faith, you know the questions in your head. HE created all THIS!? (And it’s all messed up anyway) Or I always wondered how a christian VERY strong in their faith could look at anothers faith and say “You’re wrong” Or vice versa. But I started to read the bible, and I luckily sought the advice of a friend whose strong in her faith, and through that net I was able to learn about the bible, and god.
It was amazing to find that it did all tie in, and that when I read proverbs I agreed with what was being stated. I was lost at this time, and had MANY dreams that made me believe God was trying to work His way into my life, (Like a dream my father was dying and at the end I’m on his bed praying to god, or ever since I was little I would sleep walk and end up in a praying position, creepy I know)
So I was lost and I began to hear the Word, it changed me, slowly and still doing its job, at first I was a huge skeptic, and I kept asking question and was frustrated with the response I thought was so silly!! Every christian answered my hard questions with “You have to feel him” needless to say I was pissed. But I began to let my guard down, and I found him in almost everything I did, I found him in my heart, in my head, in my school books, in my dreams, on my t.v., on my radio (The t.v. and radio would go to christian channels without me touching them) and once I began to let my guard down, I swear on every thing in me I FELT HIM!!! I wanted to cry, I began to look forward to bible study, because as I was so lost in my life, it provided a safe place, everyone there was loving and caring. And it was my HEAVEN on earth.
I am still on the way to my goal of fully believing and accepting christ, although I think I am not far off. Skepticism runs into my mind a lot while reading or listening to the bible or priest. But at the end of the day HIS LOVE PREVAILS OVER ME AND HUGS ME.
I am not a crazy bible thumpin christian, and I too believed that they were all brain washed, hypocrites who looked down at everyone. But you know what, god sets his example and wants you to be perfect and follow him but the beauty is HE ALWAYS FORGIVES. Even when I did something I was ashamed of, His love was still there. It hung onto my heart and held my hand. You see God has his plan for everyone already laid out, he knows what’s in your heart, and if you are a true christian you honor what he did for you and realize that YOU ARE A SINER. Because you are, we all are, but it’s okay. The only person you answer to on judgement day is God and he knows wether you repent for your sins, or are trying to evade the unholy death sentence.
Sorry for the huge post, but I haven't been able to fully express lately my new found love. As for other religions, it's like this... Why do you believe in ANYTHING? Because it sounds right to YOU, if you read the bible and study it and don't like it FINE its not for you but if you want a strong religion, LET IT HAPPEN. I can't remember the verse but in Peter he explains that one who seeks answers for faith and God will not find them, You must have FAITH in your faith. Sounds weird I know but try it, just believe it and it comes to you, and you think HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS BEFORE?
