Take acting classes

the class i wanna take is quite expensive and i still don’t have money for that right now. well, i’m not gonna start my master’s this year so i think i’ll have some spare money for acting classes and gym next month.

I have an interview for GSA Saturday School on 9 November. Wish me luck!

I took seven and 1/3 of the nine classes in the workshop.

I left during a break at the penultimate class because I was fed up with the instructor.

However, the class was very helpful. I’m glad I did it and I got a lot out of it.

another thing i had to call off because of money. i’m gonna make another financial plan now but thinking 6 months in advance.

I’m not sure I want to go.

Last class was horrible and I don’t even know why.

Since I’m not sure, I shouldn’t blame the class and I guess I should go. But, I’m not looking forward to it. It seems like a waste of my time.

I’ll flip a coin in the morning.

Ok, I’m really starting to enjoy it now.

So, I did my monologue again. Then, I did the second monologue.

I wish it had been filmed, so I could see what in the world I looked and sounded like.

It was probably not a good idea to interrupt the instructor’s feedback with, “I hate the sound of my own voice.”. However, I couldn’t stop myself. I was awash in feelings of hating the sound of my own voice. I know what I sound like when I’m nervous – and it’s not good.

The instructor works really hard, he’s really smart. I’m trying to do everything he says so that I get the most out of this.

just gotta find out dates and prices so i can start it next week.

I’m feeling a lot better about it. In fact, I’m actually looking forward to it.

The instructor annoys me.

One person in the class annoys me also. You know how most classes have that one person who just won’t shut up? She sits next to me and she won’t shut up. Everyone but her leaves with a “thank you” and she stays after to talk about God knows. I wonder if the instructor is annoyed by her as well?

I hope it gets better from here.

Maybe the class and the instructor don’t scare me. Maybe I’m scared of myself.

What I mean by that is this. I’m not taking the class to learn to be an actor (although learning most new things is interesting). I’m mostly taking the class to learn to fake confidence that I do not truly posses with the hope that my accomplishments won’t be restricted by my lack of confidence and that I can get more done and later I’ll have and convey real confidence.

Instead what I’m getting is everything that’s wrong with me under a microscope. And that sucks. It’s very uncomfortable.

Hopeful that this one will be better than the first one.