Grow a backbone!!!

I’ve gotten better. Still work to do, but I’m getting there.

I’ve got a long way to go. This will probably be the most difficult change I’ve ever attempted. I’m really seeing the gap between where I am and where I have to be. Mostly, I see how my career has faltered and how my home life has gotten out of control. I’ve got to start building confidence in my own person—setting my own goals and doing what it takes to make them happen. I’ve got to start standing on my own two feet.

I need to learn to grow a back bone. I am tired of having people walk all over me. My one friend even calls me mat because so many people walk all over me. I am told it is because I am too nice. I was just raised in a really great family where people are nice to each other. The sad thing is the rest of the world wasn’t so I get taken advantage of. It really sucks.

i hate it when people push me around and take advantage of me
im the coolest awesomest person ever and i dont deserve to be treated like that
and if people push me around or step all over me ill stand up for myself
because if i dont say anything i keep it inside and ill be angry and a monster comes out of me
so from now on ill stand up for myself
im not gonna care if they get mad because i know m not that b*tchy

i’m so tired of having people walk ontop of me, i don’t like to be mean so i usually give people what they want, but i really need to step up and say no!!!

Im really bad a sticking up for myself. I normally either laugh and let them walk all over me or cry. It really annoys me but i am trying ! It generally backfires on me and is worse than when it started but im gonna keep it up cos it will be worth it!

I stood up for myself and it went a lot better than I expected. I still need to work on this in other areas of my life but at least I’m on my way.

I guess I’m going to begin this one today. I have to stand up to a mean person at work or just go nuts. I’ve already sent the email and I’m so scared. I’ve got to learn to be brave and stand up for what I believe no matter what someone thinks.

But I am proud of myself for doing it! There is a reason I usually just do what others would like and that is to avoid situations like this!! Hmmmm… gold star for my forehead. I’m gonna go cry now!

I have been trying to grow, now is the time to use it. I have to use it. There are some things in this life that I strongly feel/believe, I can not allow someone to talk me into abandoning those beliefs. I can’t. This is going to be so hard, and I pray that it does not get ugly. But I just can’t do what is being asked of me, I can’t do it!

Please pray for me to have strength, to look out for myself, to believe in myself.