It looks like we’re both in the baby-making mood (and I mean that in that and in that sense, yes). For this I’m grateful, I’m glad. It’s never going to feel as innocent as the first time around, or that’s what I presume right now – perhaps there can and will be new feelings of innocence once the weeks roll on and on. I did never assume that this would never happen to us, but I’m still stunned that it did, sometimes slightly stunned, sometimes violently. I’m glad to be able to go on, hand in hand. Hoping for the best. Hopefully, finding a way to put this time to its best use, too. 23 months ago

My boyfriend writes to me that he likes the expression, “to father a child. it sounds so protective”. This, among other things, brings a smile to my face whenever I think of him. 23 months ago

Neither wishful thinking nor testing will get you pregnant. I can, luckily, still laugh about this sentence – while I spend many a conscious hours pondering the question. 1 year ago

One more round! My brain is compelled to look at this, hm, possibility from every perspective, but from a calmer stance, it comes down to this:

- I really, really want this.
- And I’m grateful for the opportunity to try and make it happen.
- It was lovely, and fun, to try, and I’m willing to do it again, to put it this inelegant way….

And now I must absolutely and urgently busy myself with work. 2 years ago