outgoing

If I want to be outgoing, I have to force myself to stop thinking so much about useless things. I notice that thinking too much of useless things helps me to lose confidence and self-esteem of myself. I need help with this!

I am trying my best to overcome my habit. I get really shy and think too much when I meet new people. I first have to fix this problem… but I can’t. I think it will take a long time for me to change. Well, at least I improved 1% from last year. Last year, I barely opened my mouth in school. This year, I open my mouth more and speak more than last year! I think I could keep it up!

I want to have more guts. I am really shy and I think too much. i think about things that won’t happen and things that is ridiculous! I can’t stand being with many people. I love to be alone. I hate it when I am with strangers. I like being with friends but not too many friends. I really want to fix my habit of being ‘independent’ and start to become a little more ‘dependent.’ My parents thinks that I need more social life and I think I need it too. My mom also thinks that I have a disease of hating people and that’s the reason why I love being alone.