forgive him

i think this one might take me awhile.

Yes, forgiveness is the best medicine for oneself. I cannot be trapped in the cage of hate: that would only hurt myself.
I told him I forgave him, he said he didn’t understand what for. Actually in order to be forgiven one should feel sorry, but he is not capable of understanding what he’s done to me—he’s too self-centred and mean to get that. So, I’m forgiving him anyway.
What I still need to do though is let him go. That’s hard, but I’m on my way. I will get past all this some time soon. I feel like I’m almost there.

this is the first time I actually feel the need to forgive someone. I’ve already hated someone, but I wanted to keep hating (the truth is: I was just striving to stop being in love). Now I need to forgive this person. Yes. Forgive him. He hurt me badly, very badly and purposefully, out of scorn. He destroyed my self-esteem and made me do and say things which were not very nice at all (I should have stopped that but I didn’t, I did try and failed completely). He walked out of our relationship stronger and wealthier. I was left a weck. Still, I’ve gotta forgive him and forget, and move on. Move on. Never to feel envious of his life or his success again. It’s not my bussiness. He was cruel to me. It doesn’t mean he’s a bad person. Maybe he just made a mistake. So, I have to forgive him. Forgive and let go.
OK… a bit more of suffering to be added to my life. I guess I can take. I will be happy some day. And this all will have been worth it.

What a long, hard road.

Having him so firmly a part of my life has two very different sides to it. On one hand, he has had a chance to redeem himself somewhat, and that’s… good. I can’t just dismiss him and dwell on the negative, right?

On the other hand, there’s always something new to frustrate me, to completely drive me up the wall, and remind me why it is I still hate to look at him.

I need to forgive him for what happened. It was a long time ago and I need to forget what he did to me. It’s over and I can’t changed it now…

It’s funny because when I wrote this I wasn’t sure which him I was referring to, but I don’t think it matters. I will try to forgive all hims.

The trait I admire the most in people in forgiveness. I’m talking serious forgiveness. I almost can’t understand it, but it’s something I want to work toward.

This story gives me hope: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=14547176

I want to finish my letter to him by the new year. 2008 needs to be better than this year was.

We, as in “him” and I have had closure.
Yes, he hurt me more than anyone ever has.
He did the same to the 2 next g/fs he has had
and now they realize what it felt like.

After over a year now, we have talked, and fought, and cried, and yelled, and ignored each other, hung out, and everything else. I think now, I’m done with that part of my life. What happened is in the past, It was wrong, he was wrong. We both had our ups and downs. We had a great relationship and then things went bad. Nonetheless, we both loved each other and still have that place in each other’s hearts. But now, I’ve moved on. He’s moved on. I forgive him. I’ll never forget but I think he deserves my forgiveness because he forgave me for all the pain I have caused him.

Forgive Him…hmm.
Its good to say, I’ve accomplished this.
As hard and time consuming as it was .. I did it.

:)

Forgiven. I’ve forgiven him. It feels wonderful.

My ex-step-father is in jail for raping and molesting me. He pretty much wrecked my family life by purposely giving my mom HIV and could have passed it on to me. I hate seeing my mom so sick, and living with the fact that it could have been me as well. I hate the fact that he doesn’t feel any guilt for what he took from me… nothing at all. I don’t know how to forgive him. I feel bad because I am suing him in a civil lawsuit. I just need to forgive and forget and realize this makes me a better person… but I guess I just can’t let go.