To be thin

heyy guys i’m new to this websit and i really want to be thin and i need help becoming thinnn and if anyone has ideas can theyy please tell mee thankkk uuuuuuuu =)

I’ve been an overeater all of my life. Earlier this summer i had a gastric band fitted and for once i’m starting to feel in control of what i eat. Although i’m not yet enjoying the full benefits or restriction from my band (it has to be filled slowly over time) i’m for once committed that whatever i lose now before the band starts working, will probably stay off. This time it’s likely i wont fail like on so many other countless/numerous occassions. Jan ‘06 i weighed 254 pounds, by the time i had my op (14 weeks ago) i was 232 pounds… now i weigh around 203 pounds.

But i need help… i need encouragement. I have to get to be slimmer/thinner as i’m sure this is the only feeling that will make me truly happy. I have enjoyed the sensations that are new to me (and that i have only dreamt of) that i for once am in control. Water is my new food, my i am missing my comfort foods. I’m moody (more than usual), weepy and feel very alone, but i also feel a sense of achievement to which makes me happier. Confused by my feelings? I certainly am. Could this fat girl finaly one day be something special and beautiful?